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Farmer's Yield

2010-03-03T22:07:00.002+08:00

As the farmer planted the last of his seeds,
he wiped off the pearl-like beads of sweat that
formed incessantly upon his brows.

He'd only just begun, and the task ahead stood tall and daunting.
Releasing a heavy sigh, he contemplated giving up.

But he thought of his family, back home waiting.
The wife who never failed to support him,
the children who never failed to make him smile,
and the loyal dog that barked every time the mailman came.
Those were the people waiting for his sweet corns and potatoes,
those were the people anticipating his lettuce and tomatoes.

It was dark, but he could see several silhouettes in the cozy cottage lit by a warm yellow light.
"At least there's supper," he thought to himself,
as he placed his pitchfork down and trudged home.
Yes, home, where he belonged.

You ran away from my pleas for help.

2010-02-16T22:52:00.003+08:00

Let's play a game.
It's called, LIFE.
Not the board game, but a more twisted
human version of it.

Let's pretend that these little figurines are people.
Yeah, see the one over there, that's you.
Look at how they're all alike, but that's okay,
they came from the same MOULD anyway.

Let's try pushing your figurine down.
Look at all the other figurines,
staying where they are.
Nobody moves, nobody wants to help.
How many friends did you say you have again?

The world, is really like that.

Fall of the infallible.

2010-02-12T04:54:00.002+08:00

Another tower succumbing to the test of time.
Said the builders, "It is mighty and strong, built to last."
But the heavens breathed and the unthinkable happens.
Crushed like a sandcastle, the tower crumbled.
Down went the king, the queen
and their noble knights.

Debris strewn all over, the damage is done.

Away we go.

2010-02-09T18:59:00.003+08:00

As he stood at the end of the path,
he looked around and saw nothingness,
the pitch black of uncertainty greeted his withered soul.

To the left was a pit of bones from fallen sinners.
To the right was a river of flame where spirits burn.
And a void of doubt awaited him beneath.
Each side offering its own grotesque relief from the system.

Unwilling to give up his soul, he took a step forward.
The bones joined to form the people who've subjected
their lives to a lifetime of decadence.
The burning souls echoed their disgust at his choice.
"Join the syssssstem, give it uppppp."

He closed his eyes..
and jumped.

See you in March people.

And those tears were for nought.

2010-02-05T19:20:00.002+08:00

Short post.

Beautiful people leave as they come.

Isn't it a shame to see a person, knowing that you'll never cross paths with them
again, And you can't help but wonder if that person would be alright.
I can't help but picture a great adventure ahead of us. We're free to pave our own paths, and
usually, these paths will never cross.

This is why when they do, you should cherish that person, because he or she might just
walk down your path together with you.

Let us see..

2010-01-28T22:18:00.002+08:00

I have a million things to do now.
Webpages, JavaShit, talking to friends,
and studying for shitload of papers that
i'll never look at again.

I wanna drop out.
Either that or.. ill post in a few.
Gonna revamp my blog soon.
Thank you Alfie.
Check his blog @ www.akulahalfi.com

Til then, never sway, never fall.
I love you guys.

You can't spell fall without 'all'

2010-01-25T22:15:00.002+08:00

As we march to our graves,
we leave footsteps on the dirt that we tread on.
If you leave a print deep enough, it just might
just overcome the test of time.

So we shake off the tears from our eyes,
and mend the holes on our boots,
we grit our teeth and continue down
the road of infinite paths.
We'll separate and forge ahead.
Some fall and never get up,
while some lose their way and their minds.

But as far as the darkness ensues,
walk straight and never sway,
and we'll meet again when our paths become one,
for the final time.

No, I don't want to play your stupid game.

2010-01-23T23:24:00.003+08:00

When the sun is shining brightly,
people come and go.
They flock the streets, and all is well,
Then comes nightfall, and the city sleeps.
Gilded lights come to life, and the moon lends its might.
Countless stars empower your dreams,
and they play in your head like vivid memories.

But when the dreams conclude and the moon dies,
morning comes once more.
Like Santa Claus, it carries a sack of goodies,
for people of all shapes and sizes.
Some people bask in them,
and others count down the days to hell.

I wonder what Santa will bring me tomorrow.
I'm gonna get the milk and cookies.

One day, they'll hunt you down and kill you.

2010-01-22T20:57:00.002+08:00

Katie M.

Why are guys so tacky?
Why do they always say the things they don't mean.
Leave the corny lines where they belong, back
into TV shows.

"I will wait for you, no matter what?"
"I'll hold you tight and not let go?"
I'm sorry, they put off girls any day.
Don't call your girlfriends your wives,
don't promise to last forever.
You can't spell forever without REV.[A7X]
He died anyway.

I should I know, I've made that mistake,
but now I can see.
Closing my eyes, I turn my back on them.
As I walk though the city gates I see the world outside,
and that's when I realise how unworthy they were.

Masks Unveiled

2010-01-21T22:02:00.004+08:00

Hay guys.

Where will you go, when the party ends,
when the clock stops ticking and the music fades.

What will you do, when the dinner's over,
when the guests stop talking and the silence deafens you.

Who will you run to, when they pull off their masks,
when their faces of steel stare hard at you.

How will you hide, when they come at you hard,
with coaxing words from tongues of filth.

You've got no one to turn to, nowhere to run.
You stare at the mirror but the very sight irks you.
You see the deep marks from those heavy marks.
You try to smile but you look like a freak.
You try to frown but the marks protest.

Filled with resentment, you punch the mirror,
breaking it into snow-like pieces,
Your skin tears and the blood runs out like prisoners released.
Now the mirror's broken, and all that remains are the four whitewashed walls
staring peculiarly back at you, wondering why you're even here.

Maybe it's time to put those masks away.
And perhaps, if you were to look closer,
at the guests, you'd have found that beneath the
layers of masks, they wore the same face.
And that face belonged to you.
They were the different people you tried to be.

This world we live.

2010-01-20T21:48:00.004+08:00

Hay guys.

The degeneration has begun.
The world is tearing itself apart.
People dying left and right. Everytime you take a breath,
a million others take their last.
Sometimes people die for a reason; from the actions they took,
or to prove a point to someone watching.
Watching all these happen made me skeptical about cementing my place on Earth.
Life's like a grotesque lucky draw. Every second, hundreds get chosen to prove points
or to answer for their misdeeds.

When Mother Nature yawns, a country falls. Nothing is safe from anything anymore.
When innocent people die, just to get messages across to us, doesn't that make us beasts.
Because of our actions, prodigies, beggars, they all die. Death doesn't discriminate. Everything's
leveled. If life's so uncertain and we know not when our time's up. Then why, why
the fuck are we still aimlessly roaming around watching the seconds tick away. Why're
we cooped up in the comfort of home, unwilling to relentlessly pursue the reason of our being? Why can't we put to rest the things that wont follow us when the good lord calls.
Why do we subject ourselves to a rigid structure of living where money follows
only the university graduates?

At the end of the day, when the sun sets and it's time to turn to dust, our material possessions will desert us and fade into the darkness. We may have survived the harsh world, we may have become successful, but if that isn't what you're called to do, haven't you already missed
the entire reason of your existence? Righteous as people may be, they're nothing but
victims of the rat race. Everyone wants to get to the top, everyone wants to lead the pack,
but when Mother Nature yawns, everyone falls.

Comparison

2010-01-19T23:44:00.002+08:00

Hay guys!

Just a quickie here! Yes, I know I have been lazy, but
I need a break sometimes. Besides, I feel like I'm talking
to the wall.

I think I'mma hypocrite. You know how I always urge people
to be themselves. Sometimes I find that pretty hard to do too.
One way or another, we're tied down by society. My straps are
almost torn, and I'm struggling with the last bit. My biggest
battlefield is my mind, and for every step I take, I pray that I
won't meet a deadlock.

And for anyone else feeling the same way I did, I hope you
know that you're not alone. I'll be here to finish the race with you.
Corny sentences are often the most apt, which is why they're so
overused.

I was blind to reality but now I see,

the shadow of the world that enslaved me.

I watched as the misunderstood set me free.

Far too long has their lips stayed shut,

exiled from society they went in shame.

Now tell me why we conformed to a single mould,

only to descend deeper beyond redemption.

CIAO<3
stay strong.

Home

2010-01-16T00:33:00.003+08:00

Hay guys!
This is gonna be a PSA.
aka, Public Service Announcement.

And it's for people who're feeling shitty and inferior right now.
I hope this helps.

To be honest, I feel that all the time. I feel that I'll never hold a candle
to some people. And it sucks, it really does, I can relate. It tears and claws
its way out of your soul.
We're like little chicks. As we watch the eagles fly, we look to our sides
and see stumps. And while they grow to dominate, we grow to die and be
eaten. All for the 'greater good'. That isnt very pleasant to think about.
It removes the fine thread you've been standing dangerously on and you fall
hard on your back. Nothing like a cruel way to remind you of the real world.

The eagles sneer. Get over it, some people are meant to rule, while the others feed on our
leftovers.

But while they fight for control, we have fun playing, running around, not giving a shit about
domination. At the end of the day, when the sun sets and heaven beckons, we may be killed
and eaten, but we had fun while it lasted. When the eagles die, they die uncontented, because
they didn't pursue the littler, better things in life: peacefulness, happiness and the lot.
So, if you're a fat, stumpy chick like me, look up high yonder the clouds and be thankful,
be thankful that you're not caught up in the tangle above. But look forward to the place much higher
up. When we stop playing and it's time to go home, know that we lived our heavens on earth.

CIAO<3

Amanda's SPOT GEE!

2010-01-14T22:35:00.002+08:00

Hay guys!

A thousand apologies for not posting lately.
And everyone's getting too lazy to tag ):
Just kidding.... ha?

Anyways, today, Amanda, or A(whatever it takes to forgive a lazy bum huh)
told me about this guy who flashed his penis at her.
And I was like, just wow. I'd never thought shit like that would
ever happen to a friend of mine, and on my birthday too.
But that's beside the point. Today's topic is about crazy hookup methods.
Sometimes I watch Asian dramas and there'll always be this one desperate
guy trying incessantly to woo the girl of his dreams but ended up failing badly.
So instead of letting go he went fuckin nuts and like, kidnapped her or something.

And Singaporean guys.. God, you have no idea. Apparently, this guy thought it'd be
cool to mix Asian dramas and porno together. So one cool day, he went like, "Okay, you know
what, I like A. But instead of doing something romantic, I'mma try to turn her on. And
OH EM GEE I think today's her friend's birthday, I can ruin his day too." So he gleefully
wanked in front of A.

Now I want to ask this guy a question. Do you think anyone would be turned on by your 2 inch
pinky dick? I can imagine you bragging to your friends like, "Hey guys, listen listen, my cock is
so fuckin huge, that when I lay it out on the keyboard, it stretches from A to ZEEEE!"
Like, cmon, know your limits. Like a rollercoaster, your pinky dick must be THIS LONG to ride.
Got no dick, don't get the chick, nuff said.

Okay, I'm sorry for swearing but it seemed pretty appropriate to me. Never like guys who're so immature. And don't get me wrong. There're two kinds of immaturity: one to keep you childlike, which
is fab, and the other to piss people off, which is obviously twisted and just wrong.

so AMANDA, you owe me a story now! teehee! <3

Keeping Track

2010-01-10T22:31:00.003+08:00

Hay guys!
Sorry, I haven't posted in a few. Been busy. *cough*really*cough* busy.
Anyway, it's because I'm tinkering with my new phone :DDDDD.
Possibly the best gift ever! Thanks Mom and Dad.
I know I fly off the handle sometimes and rant about them, but
really, without them I wouldn't be here, ranting about them. How paradoxical. :P
I'm kidding. My parents are on the whole, great.

And I think the world has reached a point where there're very few non-political
issues to deal with. Even STOMP's not helping. It's always the usual:
Catching people making out. I swear, that's all they ever do. It's not like the perverts
get any positive recognition at all. In the end, everyone's gonna flame them anyway,
so if you're one of those nice people, keep your conservative comments to yourself.
Then again, conservative people shldnt even be reading my blog, you should be putting
on layers of clothing so that you wont even reveal one strand of hair, sounds cool right?

One more thing, I cannot stress enough how much I hate waking up at 6 to go to school.
I never shoulda picked the 8am class. Fuck ):

Oh yes, have an awesome week ahead
CIAO<3

Wanna hear something cool?

2010-01-07T20:19:00.002+08:00

Hay guys!

I just wanna share something short with y'all.
If you didn't already know, I don't like thinking too long before
writing something. Like, when you start planning and stuff,
the things you write will be more predictable, and you'll eventually get
bored of writing, hence, the ending's gonna be really rushed.
So yeah, I don't spend too much time trying to plan my story out.

Today was really fun, I met a friend of mine for the first time, and we had fun...
DOING CIP, not what you're thinking, I know >)
And tomorrow, I'll be visiting my doctor to check on my wound. teehee!

Oh yes, back to issues. Don't you find it annoying when people tell you to go
"live in your own little world"? That's a stupid thing to say, and it's not even
an insult, because all my imagination goes into that world, and it's probably
better than their boring lives. At least my little world has beautiful oceans and
perfect skies. At least my little world has happiness and serenity; way cooler
than your AuditionSEA-ridden, bootlicking life. How do people even get about
sucking up to everyone, it's disgusting. D:
Kay, I've ran outta topics, ttyl!
CIAO<3

Debunking Darwin

2010-01-06T16:48:00.002+08:00

Hay guys!

I apologise for not updating in 2 days, because I have to go to bed at 11,
and being a good boy, i really did :D
Anyways, today, I wanna talk about something a tad personal.
It is about the need for a significant other.

Wow, I dont know where to start, but I wanna confess to you guys that
I need a girlfriend. And no I'm not desperate, but having a girlfriend is really important to me.
A normal person is built in a way that he or she can't function alone. A person's like a house,
liable to collapse without the proper support, and having a significant other provides that support
that we need. And it's not always about money, but rather, support as in emotional support and stuff.
Wouldn't it be awesome to have someone by your side whenever you're feeling down? That person is
like the personafication of hope.

This is why I believe in the Adam and Eve theory, because God create 2 genders for a reason, and I
truly believe that behind every incident lies a bigger picture. Incidents are like drops of paint, Just having one of them on your canvas isnt enough to form a beautiful piece of abstract art. And that piece would probably look really messy and complex but if you were to place yourself further away from the canvas it shows an awesome picture. Life's like the canvas, sometimes, taking it head on blinds you
from the reality of it all. And sometimes, what we really need to do is to look at our lives from a distance.

Okay, I digressed, LOL. Anyways, yeah the reason why I don't believe in Darwinism is because everything happened so randomly. Like we were presumably the evolution of apes cause we look like them, and that's an insult! So if a person has fish lips, he is the evolution of fishes? :O
That's so mean! So, never tell Darwinists that they look like shit. It's like when one of them takes a shit, sees it and goes, "HEY LOOK MY ARM!"

So parents, dont deprive your kids from dating, because underexposure to the opposite sex makes your kids gay.And ps, I really really love girls. >)
Sorry for the shitty post, I have no idea what to blog about. Its like I had ideas in my head but they turned out to be really short so yeah.. I just wished something interesting would happen.. not to me of course.

CIAO<3

In Your Embrace

2010-01-03T21:50:00.005+08:00

Hay guys!

Well for most of us, tmr marks the start of prison life, aka SCHOOL.
Everyone's gonna picture evil cackling witch-like teachers torturing the crap
out of us with pile after pile of work. THINK AGAIN, because for me, as well
as the rest of the poly students, homework is now byte-sized, therefore there
is room for a WHOLE lot more. So like, widen the evil smiles of our lecturers,
that's how bad it is.

Okay, maybe I'm exaggerating. I'm probably just speaking for all the idiots like me
who picked the wrong course and are struggling to drift to school like aimless souls,
aimless, MESSED UP souls that is. And yes, I'm getting this annoying feeling when
you feel that none of your sentences are flowing right. I think that happens when you
blog/write for the sake of it and not because you're inspired to. It sucks cause it really
robs your mood to blog, and you'll digress after like 10 lines or something.

Church was okay, cathecism class wasnt as boring as anticipated, and I'll need to start writing
my testimonial soon. Oh yeah sorry if you don't get what I'm talking about, it's a PREBBY THANG!
Like, Presbyterian.. I'm kidding, I respect all religions, I think. I know some religions are really queer, but they are the embodiments of culture, and culture is, in my opinion, beautiful.

Anyways, this is just a very short update about my life, and I hope to get some pictures up soon, to show you what've I been doing during the holidays. And.. quick note, I can't wait to finally be off my dressing, so that I can start losing weight. Holidays are never kind to your diet ):
Aight, take care
CIAO<3

Cheer Up Post

2010-01-03T00:10:00.003+08:00

Hay twin, you're probably wondering why I'm saying 'twin', instead of
'guys'. That's because this post is for my best friend in the world.

If you ever read this, don't beat yourself up or feel bad over it. Everyone
has those days and what you did wasn't even as bad as what most people our age would do. But I don't want to harp on that issue, because there're probably a bajillion other problems that await you. Instead, I wanna take you someplace. It's almost magical, but it isn't my bedroom.
Kidding.

Yeah, right now, I want you to close your eyes and imagine some things. I honestly don't know how wide your imagination is, so just try your best.
Imagine reddish orange clouds rolling, like everything was sped up. You can see occasional flashes of lightning, and you're standing on lush green grass, with nothing but grass all around you. So imagine all of that. I personally like this scenario, because even though you're in the middle on a storm, you'll feel at ease, because there's nothing to knock you off place. And that's why whenever you feel down, you should never think of people, because they remind you of the real world. Instead, think nature, because it helps soothe your troubled soul.

And one more thing, I know I might not be the best of storytellers, and sometimes I'm weird, sometimes I'm corny. But I know that I'll always be here for you, and I'll never judge you for anything. 3 words: you're my twin. Okay maybe 3.5.
<3

Grudges

2010-01-01T23:40:00.006+08:00

Hay guys!

Today's post won't be really long, but I really wanna blog about something
many people can relate to.

And I'm not gonna lie, I do hold grudges. Fortunately, they're slippery so I lose my grip on them
after awhile. Grudges remind me of the Grinch that stole Christmas, and if you think about it, they're very similar. The Grinch is basically a manifestation of its countless grudges, and hence it steals Christmas, aka Happiness.

The worst part about grudges is that, there's no real way to shake them off. I mean, even if
you forgive, you'll probably remember that incident. An interesting point to note is that,
as much as parents don't want their kids to know, they hold grudges to. You may have heard
your mother say, "Gosh son, how many times do I have to tell you before you change?!?!"
That, to me, is a grudge to some extent. I wished my parents would stop bringing up the past and live for the moment instead. Is it that hard to cut away that sentence, because it serves
no purpose other than to remind their kids that they're incorrigible. That's pretty harsh.

Okay, I wanna digress. Today, my cell group and I were playing this cool game, "Ungame".
It consists of cards with questions on them, and you have to pick one and share your opinions with the rest of the players. I thought it was by far a better icebreaking game than the stupid Whacko shit, oh and the game with Hunters, trees and squirrels sucked too, because there's
no real depth into the game, other than to pick on people so they can do embarrassing forfeits.
That kinda perpetuates social prejudice, totally not cool.

With that said and done, I'm gonna catch some Zs, because I have a baptism interview tmr at 12. AND I KNOW, YOUR reaction, yes YOU THERE, like, "OMG BEN YOU'RE GETTING BAPTISED???????!!!!!" YES I AM
HAHA sooo..
CIAO<3

Count to 10, and we're back again.

2010-01-01T00:57:00.005+08:00

HAY GUYS!

So another decade has passed, and a new one begins right now.
This time, it's different, because when 2000 unfolded, we were
all still in primary school and didn't know better. But as I sit
here, with my own thinking, I knew it was time to seriously ponder
about the effectiveness of New Year's Resolutions. Yes I know I've
blogged about it before but that was just me telling you what my resolutions
are instead of talking about it.

Anyways, New Year's Resolutions may seem corny and overly cliched, but
at least it gives your new year a backbone, little projects you can work on.
Wouldn't it suck if you're like, "Oh LOOK a new year, sooo.. why am I
still alive?" That's the problem with many people because they don't
know what else to make of their lives other trying to survive, and that,
is a miserable way to live.

Therefore, I'm gonna tell you guys about the things I'm looking forward to.

1.The new Alex Rider book. Did I tell you, I really like reading :D

2.New friends. Probably the top of my list. I love people, what more can I say?

3.Blessings and Baptism. I am a Christian, and I've personally witnessed the countless things that Jesus has done for me. Hence, I'm gonna be baptised this Easter. And, I'll finally be able to get a middle name. YAY!

4.iPhone. Okay I know this might sound materialistic, but I'm still craving for it. :P

5.YOUTUBE. Im looking forward to watching all the cool new videos, as well as to make one or two myself.

6.Change of course!. Most anticipated event ever! Wish me luck.

See, all the little things in life that I look forward to, and I'm sure you guys do have things to look forward to as well.

HAPPY NEW YEAR
CIAO<3

The Reverend Tholomew Plague

2009-12-29T23:13:00.002+08:00

Hay guys!
A thousand apologies for not doing my skin, I'm just focusing on recovering,
because other than that, I really have no mood for anything else.
It's a funny world out there. Come to think about it, a man with power today is
nothing compared to a man with the same power centuries ago, when social lines were yet
to be drawn. I'd love to be a part of that era, because nobody holds a prejudice towards anyone.
Everyone was able to be themselves without feeling the strain of being an outcast.

Today, even parents care about their pride more than their kids. It's always, "My child can do this, my child can do that!", never,"I hope my child excels in his passion to lead a blissful life for himself.". That\s because even our parents are trying to fit into society. Sucky, isnt it? That's probably why I blog so often, because I'm not allowed to be myself. To be honest, that's kinda pathetic, cause I have to escape to the virtual world which is actually created by society. Wow, I'm just gonna listen to some songs, and speaking of songs,
please take a moment of silence, in due respect to Jimmy Owen Sullivan, better known as The Rev, drummer and backup vocalist of Avenged Sevenfold.

RIP
CIAO

This calls for a [insert witty catchphrase]

2009-12-27T22:49:00.002+08:00

Hay guys!
I have never been HAPPIER.
And never be mistaken, the ability to take a shit is by far, the most essential
ability of the human body. While waiting for my wound to heal enough, I wasn't
able to make a doodoo for 4 WHOLE days. Can you imagine how shitty it was?(prease, no pun)
And about an hour ago, I finally satisfied the most fundamental of human urges ~~other than sex~~!

In all seriousness, this episode taught me not to take simple things in life for granted,
because nothing is definite. My uncle was as fit as a fiddle, but *snap*, he died of cancer.
It was a surreal experience, like when everything around you blurred and you did a self-check.
Epic moment much? :D

And, now that the only thing i need to worry about is my recovery, I can finally redo my blogskin! *exaggerated cheer!* But what's not so cool is that I have school in a week, so umm, yeah, I'll be getting back my failed tests with unnecessary sighs of disappointment from my lecturer. I have no idea how I'll pass my next round of exams. To be honest, I'm not that worried. I probably won't even care if I dropped out of school. But for the sake of my ASIAN parents, I'll just hafta try, soooo, wish me luck!

CIAO<3

Reflection

2009-12-26T22:46:00.002+08:00

Hay guys!
And no I'm not gonna deliver a long, boring and corny speech about the things I've done this year as it draws to a close.. Hmm, maybe I will. Idk.

Anyways, 2009 has been rather eventful.. with 2 surgeries, how could it not be? :D
That aside, every year has indeed, helped open my squinty eyes to the reality of this world.
It helped uncover the thorns of the bed of roses, hidden by its green leaves. Idek what I'm talking about. But in a nutshell, 2009, like all other years, has been indispensable in shaping me to become the person I am today, which is, to be honest, nothing ._____.

Other random 2009 facts: it's the year where..

1. I discovered a new sub-human species: homo faggus.
2. I realised that there're many, many fair-weathered friends in my life.
3. I realised how much I really need my family, good friends and of course, God.
4. I realised that cold chicken broth tastes like shit.
5. I love things I never thought I would: Nature, serenity and all my readers.

So I hope you guys have had awesome Christmas celebrations with your family and friends!
Now if you excuse me, I'm gonna read books 8)

CIAO<3

New Year's Resolution

2009-12-25T23:33:00.002+08:00

Hay guys, MERRY CHRISTMAS!
And time to make some fictitious changes to my life.
On a side note, I'm really ope about telling you guys what my shortcomings are,
cause I've nothing to be ashamed of.
Anyways, I resolve to:

1.Stay peaceful at all times.
2.To cut down my meat intake by 80%.
3.To care more about the people who matter.

And, I really hope I stay true to my resolutions, cause I'm really serious about them.
*Yeah right, for the 233413th time*

So on Wednesday, I had a operation on my anus, whereby the source of my abscess was taken out, leaving me with a nice wound that hurts like shit whenever I do my dressing.
I'm not even gonna lie, I don't have high pain tolerance. *cough*wimp*cough*. And right now, it's about 8 hours til my next dressing, and I'm honestly quite scared. I guess in life, everyone has to make sacrifices one way or another. For me, I'm gonna have to eat healthy and keep really clean. That kinda completes my hippie, country bumpkin outlook of life.

CIAO<3

Sleeping 101

2009-12-22T23:25:00.002+08:00

Hay guys!
If you're the kind of person who lives for the moment, then you'd definitely love sleeping.
Isn't it awesome, I mean, sleep takes away all the bullshit in your life, for hours, and during that period of time, everything stays still and serene. All the negative emotions are chucked aside, and you're granted the ethereal essence of total peacefulness. Like wow, I'm going to bed now.

OOPS

2009-12-22T11:23:00.000+08:00

I just realised I misspelled 'Facebook'. Will change when I'm done recovering. UGH -.-

STOMP: Singapore Seen.. NOTHING YET Part 1

2009-12-19T19:56:00.004+08:00

Hay guys!
I'm gonna start a series making fun of Singapore Seen.
Singapore Seen is a section on STOMP where people can
upload pictures and comment on them. And I know some people'll be like
"Ooooooh you mean like.. FACEBOOK?!"
No, because the pictures are "scandalous", at least in most Singaporeans' eyes.
Sooooo, I'm gonna discuss selected issues in which I feel are hella pointless.

What's wrong with our kids Part 2: Girl, 13, brags about drinking liquor

(A STOMPer was shocked when she came across this blog about a 13-year-old girl who brags about drinking liquor.

In the blog, the girl, apparently from Changkat Changi Secondary School, talks about buying different kinds of liquor and liking Bacardi.

In an email to STOMP today (Nov 17), the STOMPer who came across their blog says:

“I was surprised when I came across this. The girl is only 13, yet already drinking liquor. She even brags about it on her blog.

"The pictures are screenshots of her blog."

Look at that.
Okay for one, there's nothing wrong with drinking, if you know your limits.
And you should be glad she isn't Russian, cause Russian kids drink from a very early age. And not those cheap 8% vodka from 7-11, they drink REAL, 40% vodka. I think they drink to keep warm or something. But hey, drinking is drinking. Okay sorry, digressed, but back to my point, Stomper, why're you making sucha big fuss over this? If you look at this way, you're the bigger issue because online stalking is a menace to one's privacy. Plus, I don't even think you know her, but I think you're the kind of people who ogle pretty girls 24/7. (At least I think that girl's pretty..) <- "Pedophile moment!"
So, what did I learn here? That you're a creepy stalker. You're probably using a pair of binoculars to peek at a pre-schooler making a doodoo even as I'm typing this.
That's pretty bad.
Oh, SAME goes to people who take pictures of students making out. Don't play the good guys, y'all are just using that as an excuse to continue your stalking ways.

Right, I was gonna rant more, but I'll save it for Part 2, coming soon.
So boys and girls, you guys can like, leave a tag, telling me which Singapore Seen issue you'd like me to do.

CIAO
<3

Nearly There

2009-12-19T03:03:00.001+08:00

Hay! Another quick update @ 3 in the morning.
One last problem to fix and we're pretty much there. Just hafta add
in a widget or 2 :D

CIAO
<3

Patience, Ben-san

2009-12-18T22:39:00.003+08:00

Hay guys!
This is a very very short post, because I'm currently doing my blog.
And I'm procrastinating like its crazy, so I'm sorry. HAHA.
Anyways, it should be done by tomorrow. So YAY!

CIAO
<3

STOP GAMING BENJAMIN!

2009-12-16T22:58:00.002+08:00

Haaaai guys!

I'm soso sorry I haven't blogged in ages. I was in HK until like, yesterday.
But the real excuse is that I was caught up with Facebook games.
Yes, Facebook destroys lives. But I'm hookd anyway, don't give a shit.
Anyways, I'm gonna make some changes to this blog, maybe like, revamp it a lil.
But knowing me, I'll probably be too frigging lazy to do it, much less do anything at all.

Some of the changes won't just be physical ones.
For example, I'll stop swearing so much. Okay that's kinda shocking.
I KNOW. I mean, then I'll have more space for content! I'm not a softieeeeee D<
And, I'll probably start blogging regularly. I think my life's too important for constant gaming.
I could feel my social life ebbing away, I swear. Oh wait, I didn't have one to begin with.
But that's what I get for choosing an IT course.
"Wanna hang out?"
"Nah, playing audi, fixing my wcrvebtfrgyuttgtrf hard disk..."
You get what I mean, so pity me! D:
And, Benny needs some money to fuck some bitches. I'm kidding, but I really need money.
I get 200/month. And I tithe(willingly btw) the full 10%, not because I'm obliged to or anything, but I think God has done so much for me that I cannot not give Him a little of what I'm blessed with. *shrugs*
That leaves me with 180 bucks. You know, when people tell you that you'll have enough money if you plan, that's not true. For one, the canteen food in my school isn't cheap. Unless, you count a dollar's worth of fries lunch. And for some reason, my friends frequent Subway, which uh, burns a gaping hole in my non-existent pocket.
So yeah, my sad sad life. But who am I to complain, if I were to throw a chicken bone down on the ground, a thousand Ethopian kids would fight for it.
And speaking of food, I ate like a total pig in Hong Kong. See, over there, vegetables are a rare sight. It's always, pork, duck, goose, chicken, rice, soup, more pork... so yeah. Prease, someone, exercise with me! I could just eat less and vomit like an anorexic bitch. ):
Sooooo, I'm gonna start revamping now, and I could even use this for my assignment. *evil grin*

CIAO<3

MIA... again.

2009-12-04T22:11:00.002+08:00

Hey guys, i know it has been a really long time since I've posted, but there isn't really much to post about.

I've grown to not care about worldly issues.
NOT
that would mean I'd have nothing to blog about anymore. UGH.

Anyways, just a quickie, if you've read the papers, the hot-topic now is about
Tiger Wood's affair, and how people're trying to pry a man's brain open.
I read this column about someone commenting that men are pigs cause they're born
with "roving eyes" and hence are likely to sleep around.
C'mon, women are whores too you know.

It's true, I like to look at pretty girls, but it dosent mean that I'm thinking of sleeping with all of them... maybe 7 or 8? Im just kidding, but you don't go around judging men because of the general assumption based on a few examples. That's STEREOTYPING motherfucker.
Every time my mother tells me that I shouldn't go against the world, I'm blessed with another excellent example on why I should beg to differ.

Society never changes, you either fit in, or fuck off.
I won't fit in, but fuck you.
So please, just start being yourself, for the millionth fucking time.
Nobody likes posers.

What I am, I am motherfucker.

2009-11-24T19:48:00.002+08:00

Hay guys,
today, this faggot really pissed me off.
I mean, he's literally gay. That's just gross. No offence to faggots,
but there's no fucking way I'll ever be able to imagine guys kissing each other.
What the shit? I like lesbians though.
Anyways,
this son of a fucking bitch, started judging me cause I cussed.
He was raving about this Japanese bitch. And I'm like, really? who the fuck is that?
Like, in a really casual, laid back tone, I wasnt like, shoving my dick in his face and like,
WHO THE FUCK IS THAT?
And he told me that I could be nicer. What, you don't like people cussing, then go fuck yourself dude, kay firstly, you remind me of my ex, cause you look like her. And as if your faggot face isnt enough, you wanna judge me? You think people who cuss arent nice? Well maybe, people who cuss in hokkien. But I fucking dont. So like, know people better before you start pointing fingers. Ohhhh Ben's gay cause he has hippie hair, ben's weird cause he makes people stare at him disapprovingly, ben's fucked up cause he pisses people off and likes porno. Ben this, Ben that, well suck my dick motherfuckers. Cause guess what, I'm not gonna change to please your ass, I'm not gonna "stop being so crude" to show you that I "can be nicer". So if you're the gay motherfucker reading this, fuck you left right up down in your tight asshole, hoe!

I need a break.

2009-11-19T22:25:00.002+08:00

I won't be posting anytime soon.
If I were to have the opportunity to list my questions,
it would take the rest of my miserable life.

And all of a sudden, the pillars sustaining my reason of being crumbled on me.
Then there're people who tell you to cheer up and stay positive, to let things be.
They don't know what's it like to be me, they don't know what's it like to feel used,
over and over again.

Why isit that nobody's here for me when I've always been here for them?
You think I'm invincible, just because I can listen to your problems?
I'm sorry you think that way.
I'm sorry you think I'm always strong.
I'm sorry you think I'm always indifferent.
I'm sorry you think I'm always happy.
I'm sorry for being human.
A friend of mine mentioned something about being used.
I can so relate to him right now.
People forget the things you do for them, and when they're okay,
you get tossed aside like a fucking rag doll.

If I were to descend into the depths of hell to rescue you, you'll escape unscathed,
while I'm left to burn.

Hence, I'm gonna be MIA contemplating my life.
Til then,
BennyBlasphemy

What I'm trying to sa-.. no, fuck you.

2009-11-16T22:06:00.002+08:00

Hay guys!
I'm here with no clue about what to blog about?
I mean, it has been so hectic these few days that I didn't even have the inspiration to blog.

I still don't actually, but that's contradictory since I'm here aren't I?
And dosen't it suck, when a lecturer refuses to admit that his teaching sucks so much balls?
If you're from my math class, you'll clearly know who I'm talking about.
The other time I sorta, argued with him, I told him that I found his teaching sucky.
He was like, "Oh but that's how I've been teaching."
Kay for one, you obviously don't understand us. When we don't say anything, it dosent mean we think your teaching is wonderful, we just cant be fucked because we're all doing our own stuff anyway. And like secondly, we don't exactly like to come into class awkward cause we hafta see a face we spat at for the rest of the semester.

So they were right after all, ignorance IS bliss. And then there's this creepy stalker from my CCA, asking me to play DOTA/lunch with him. Okay, no offence but I have a life. I read books, play the piano, watch teevee, take a piss...~~on my neighbour's face~~ etc.
And speaking of neighbours, I have this snob of a guy living downstairs.
He dosen't respond when I greet him, dosen't thank me for holding the lift door for him, or shit like that. I mean, I'm not insistent that he does either, but some acknowledgment would be nice. It's after all, preferable to be courteous.

He reminds me of obnoxious parents who force their kids to take up classes they don't even LIKE, just so they can brag about them to their relatives.
"HAY EVERYONE, MY SON CAN PLAY THE PIANO!"
"OMG MY DAUGHTER'S BALLET GRADE IS 45678907654567"
"CMON JOHN, PLAY THAT MOZART PIECE FOR AUNT BERTHA!"
Sounds familiar? Fuckers.
Ever wonder why your kids become rebels, or in Singapore, posers? That's cause you never
spared a thought for them. All too often, you treat them as your pokemon, your MapleStory character, whatever the fuck you want them to be. You 'train' them, make them wear the best stuff for the sole purpose of showing them off to your friends. But get real bitches, this is the real world, you guys DO NOT control us. So DEAL with it, you think Imma wear a leotard for you and split my balls so that your fucking friends can clap their fat, oily, hamburger-filled hands, well think again. i'm sorry to be the harbinger of bad news parents, but you're gonna hafta take some spades and fuck yourselves, or if you'd like me to be more courteous; I'd have to politely decline your request, because forcing someone against his wishes is really disturbing, and hence you'll have to purchase some gardening tools to make love to yourselves.

Anyway, question to.. think about, not to tag, cause everyone's too fucking lazy. :D
But yeah, do your parents make you do shit you don't like?
Mine dont, but I'm kinda speaking out for people whose parents do, and that's fucking sad.
bye nao.<3

The Demon Awakes.

2009-11-12T19:14:00.002+08:00

Hay guys.
Idk if y'all know, but I used to have really bad anger management issues.
I know it sucks, and it has been reduced to a whimper now.
But tbh, I embraced anger like a junkie embraces drugs...

Eyes of fire, heart of steel,

knife in hand, set to kill.

I could feel the demon caressing my delicate body, as it slowly seeped
into my mind, assuming total control over my actions. I thought of
first degree murder, and licked my lips in delight as I imagined pushing the knife
ever so deep into my victim's heart. Like a famished beast, I'd feast on his heart
and then his guts. Sprawling he laid, blood onto the whitewashed walls like
a grotesque work of art.

One two, strangle you,
three four, breathe no more..

Swim in your blood, without a tinge of guilt,
upon your rotting carcass, where anger was built.

Oh how the thought of bloodshed became my ecstasy,

Drip, drip, drip,
This isnt my mind, just a peep.

Naw I'm kidding, it wasnt THAT bad.

question.. What're your flaws?
tag! kthxbai!

Assumption

2009-11-11T22:08:00.003+08:00

Today's post is about scene kids.
It's not gonna be wordy, cause I'm not in a blogging mood.
Oh btw, dosent it suck when people judge you just by your posts?
In general that is, not just me. I'm pretty sure most controversial bloggers such as myself
get judged. Adults go around saying, omg what kinda example is he setting for the younger generation?
Scapegoating, the act of putting the blame on the most vulnerable target.
You fucked your parenting up and it's our fault now? Fuck yourself.
Kids, fuck is a bad word, don't use it. HAHAHA omg the irony!

Anyway, pictures:

Chris Chaos[Chris Dakota]

Sam Phantom[Sam Llansing]

Luke Nugent

Dani Gore

So yeah. Oh and I don't own the pictures. They were taken from Myspace/facebook.
BUT I THINK THEY'RE ALL GORGEOUS!

So...
what kinda style do you have?
Tag!
kthxbai!

TWIN

2009-11-08T23:17:00.003+08:00

THIS IS A PSA:

not really.
But it's probably more important, cause it's about CHERYL KANG, aka TWIN.
So Shaun, if you see this, fuck you.

Anyways, this is a brief summary of her.
BASICALLY, to know more about her, or me, ask either of us questions, and you'd probably get similar answers. Or you could read a post of mine, and then one of hers.. you get my drift.

Oh and I ain't gonna write a fucking conduct check about her.
Liek omg Cheryl is a conscientious girl who puts in effort in her work.
FUCK that, Cheryl rocks your fucking dirty, smelly-ass socks off your scrawny legs nigguh!
And she's attached, not to me. But some people just dont get it, and they be harassing mah twin? Suck it up boys. You wanna get close to her, you gotta be her twin, but she be MAH TWIN. So back off!

:D
just playin.
~~not~~
kthxbai

Cat Soup and Milkshake, with the udders.

2009-11-08T19:01:00.003+08:00

Hay guys! It's me again.
Okay people who starts a post by saying, "OMG HAI ITS ME!" bothers me.
Cause who the fuck could it be if it aint you? ):
Haha just kidding, I don't hate on people who do that, even though it's a little unusual.

It also bothers me when twits spell you as "euu". Okay, for my American friends,
this is how Singaporean sluts twit. Kay first off, it's not even close in terms of pronounciation,
it fuckin starts with an 'E'. And secondly, euu and you has 3 letters. Clearly, the latter dosent take any more effort to type, and it dosent make you look like a complete ass clown. So yeah.
it's just my opinion though cause doing the former dosent make any sense.

Oh and I just found out why it's so awfully boring here. That's cause we only have like, the 3 main races to contend with: Chinese, Malays and Indians. There're hardly any Caucasians here, which would be so much more diverse if there were. Like, for dinner, instead of eating the same fucking mixed rice, I can eat like, paella, or german sausages. I mean, we DO have them here but that'd mean me having to travel for a fucking hour to scour for that ONE Spanish or German restaurant.

And local gangsterism is a fucking joke.
There's no real.. fights or anything like that. So when you're in school, there're no real fights to watch and yeah, that sucks. The only action I got ~~other than sex~~ was when I cussed at Homo Faggus and she was like, "Whatever.." in that annoying tone.

Oh and there's this propaganda module in my course. It's about me having to SERVE the community and sacrifice my interests for my country. Like.. ME, sacrificing MY interests to get MY ass kicked for this country? That's fucking bullshit, I'd take the first plane out. But don't get me wrong, it's not about why I refuse to serve, its about the country I'm supposed to serve. And I'm not some politician, so I won't go into details. Who gives a shit anyway, politics remind me of Mandrin classes. Oh, but school politics are fun. I like seeing how people kill off each other and then nothing happens save a few casualties.
"HAHA BITCH, I BACKSTABBED YOU AND YOU DONT HAVE FRIENDS ANYMORE!"
"OMG WHORE SO DID I, NOW WE BOTH HAVE NO FRIENDS!"
Okay I have no idea what I'm talking about.
It's getting boring, cause there's nothing happening here, it's literally a ghost town, with zombie aunties bargaining at the wet market, and my classes start at 9/830/8. Fuck this shit man, I hafta wake up at SIX in the morning.

Favourite Asian stereptype:
You stupid chink, go eat fried rice and masturbate over math equations." - KevJumba

So... question: Do you like your school schedule? Isit good or does it suck as much balls as mine?
TAG PLEASE!
kthxbai<3

I love Incoherency.

2009-11-05T22:52:00.002+08:00

Hay guys.
Yes I know I havent posted in like, 2 days?
Come to think of it, 2 days ain't that long..
hmm..

Anyways, my week has been pretty good.
Woke up at 11am...
HA kidding.
Isn't it annoying when some people are insensitive towards other people's feelings, you might ask.
Well it's also annoying when you act like you can take a joke but you end up POSING, poser. ):
If you don't have a fucking sense of humor, then don't fake a smile when you get teased or laughed at. False signals kills lives. *cough*

Another thing that bothers me is I AM CURRENTLY RUNNING OUT OF TOPIC TO BLOG ABOUT.
Cheryl's right, I usually blog about the same old stuff, just that I rephrased the whole thing.
Now I've run out rephrases. PFFT.
But that's just the way life is. When it's fun, it's REALLY FUN; tons of juicy bits to blog about.
Now, do I need to tell you about my hour long bus trip to my fucking school cause someone died in an accident?
Or that I skipped my propaganda class today because its.. propagenda?
Seriously, all I heard that bitch say was something along these lines:
giving back to the community,
dying for the country, aka patriotism,
being a law-abiding motherfucker.
Isn't it reminiscent of Hitler's schools where he screwed with the entire syllabus and replaced one dripping with Nazi values? This is kinda how it's like in that class.
And believe you me, she has the face of a dictator.
Oh and yes, it's fucking annoying when lecturers tell you to put away your laptops. Even more so when they like, do it in a really bad english. Just like CCY. it's a class joke, dont worry about it.

Ha, anyways I'll blog again tmr. Am fucking tired.geez

I really don't know what this post will be about.

2009-11-03T21:20:00.003+08:00

Hay guys!
It's true, I have no idea what I'll be blogging about.
Denise Kang asked me to rant about how judgmental people can be.

Well, let's use me for example.
Most people would say that I look like a gangster.
Therefore I must:
Smoke,
drink,
get high,
fight alot,
listen to techno,
wear bright pink skinny jeans,
be from ITE,
have that shitty gangster tattoos.
I mean c'mon, firstly, idek why people think I look gangster.
Isn't it obvious that I'm a good church boy? HAHAHAHA.
But seriously, the only reason why people say that it's because
I cuss, and I'm not afraid to be myself in public. And I have colored, long hair.
Therefore they judge me for that.
Okay faggots, for one, Singaporean gangsters swear in Hokkien, probably the most disgusting
dialect after Mandrin. Sidenote: mandrin is a dialect to me cause it sounds too shitty to be a language itself.
Secondly, Singaporean gangsters aren't themselves in public. Have you seen how they ALWAYS seem to be fucking emo/faux-hyperactive?
But you can go ahead and judge anyway, I like pissing off people like you.
But that's like, 99% of all Singaporeans.

-oh yeah, that's ben, thats the weird gangster. He swears alot and he's crude. So he must suck at his studies and his hippie hair is retarded. Maybe he has AIDS.

what the fuck?

being judgmental is correlated to being stereotypical. Because you have stereotype, you judge when people fall/don't fall into your stereotype.
For example: Good guys have short hair.
So if a guy has long hair, you'll judge him and think he's some homo who cant afford a haircut.
So please, things aren't always what they seem, you can't go around with your little stereotypes and start judging others cause they're not what you expect the to be, that's just fucked up.
I might seem hypocritical cause I do judge sometimes. I guess what I'm saying is, dont judge based on your stereotype. If you somehow have an addiction to judging, at least do so with some fucking common sense.
For example, homo faggus is proven and hence valid.
Okay I'm not trying to defend my actions. Not that I care what people think of it.

Idk about you guys, but I'm trying to make myself oblivious to what others think of me.
It aint rocket science. You live, NOT to please other people.
Not everyone's gonna like you.
And if you're like me, most people won't like you.
But that's okay, you don't live for them anyway, so what does it matter?
Like, I have too many things to be excited over, things to prepare for.
I've got no time to bother myself which this bullshit.
But I do enjoy getting flamed. I was born to piss the world off anyway.
Looks like I'm doing a pretty good job. Feels almost like a hobby.
Anyone up for it? :D

So.. question of the day, do you wanna be yourself in public? What do you feel about having
to be so sensitive to that people might say about you?

Cut a boner in half, now I have 2! OMG

2009-10-31T23:08:00.003+08:00

Hay guys!
You're probably reading this only because you thought I DID cut my penis in half.
Faggots. ):

Anyway, I know I haven't posted in ages, so I'm sorry.
But if you know me well enough to get a weeee lil sneak peek at my schedule,
you'll be mildly to severely disgusted, depending on how much you love ~~porn~~ reading books.
Honestly, most people aren't as well-read as they'd want you to think.
When people tell you that they're reading a book, ask them what chapter he or she is at,
then ask the same question an hour later. No fucking difference!
I know, cause I'm guilty as charged.
Like I could be reading this thick ass storybook; it's fucking good, and I'm actually thrilled!
Okay, bookworm moment! Anyway, all of a sudden, I'd be.. I'd be on Facebook.
Here's a heads up for everyone who reads: don't turn your fuckin laptop on while reading, Facebook destroys vibes I swear. I didn't even feel like reading after that.
Still, it could be my messed up brain.

Moving on, remember my post about homo fagguses? My friend and I had the privilege of
observing a live specimen right here, in smelly Singapore, in my fuckin class.
And no, I can't really reveal her blog, because, I don't want the whole world to have their eyes on her; cause it's awfully dangerous, her stupidity might kill you. But I can give you a peek,
here's an exerpt from her blog. Sidenote: God it's fuckin hard to get a sentence with no names on it cause all she blabbers about is how she went out with the same 10 people.
Here it is:
Just reached home not long :D !

friday♥
woke up around 7am+
not really feel like going school ! head was dizzy !
so sleeeep back ._. !
woke up around 11am PLUS
then my stupid block dunno the lift upgrading or wht shyt !
NO WATER SUPPLY till5pm x.x !
wtf ! so woke up use desktop ! dota 1 round ! then its around 3+ !
finally water supply is back :D !

There, see how fucking stupid it looks?
Just typical isnt it? To BLOW up something so minor such as the lack of water. It's not like
she needed it anyway; she was playing DOTA. ._____.
*Hafizah, reminds you of someone? A certain someone who blows things up. THe funny thing is that, these bitches BLOW everything, except a dick. No man would want his snickers bar in their smelly mouths.
Oh and, I think her keyboard dosen't have the period button, cause all she uses is the exclamation mark. Like this!
Excuse me, are you trying to liven your post cause guess what, it AINT WORKING.

Lastly, I know I may seem overly critical of her, and other similiar people. But trust me, if you were to study her, you'll feel the same. Speaking of studying, if she were a book, all you'll ever read are like, 500 pages of Audi.
Oh, and if you're this bitch I'm talking about. Go ahead, flame me on my tagbox. I'm sure all my awesome readers would want to know who the fuck you are.

So, question of the day: Do you have homo fagguses in your class or workplace? Are they just as annoying? Leave me a tag!
kthxbai<3

BREAK

2009-10-30T23:48:00.000+08:00

Hey guys. sorry, my interwebz was bitchin and I just managed to get online.
Update tmr :D

Bleed me a fucking river.

2009-10-28T17:47:00.002+08:00

Hay guys!
So today, I was doing some exercise to shed a fraction of my massive fats.
Long story short, a dumbbell fell on my fucking head. And I'm having some mild,
on and off headaches.
My mother was telling me how it could be a blood clot on my head that's waiting to give
me a wonderful dose of paralysis, coma, or even death.
Meet my mother, a 47 year old paranoid freak that cares only for her own social reputation[if she even had one] and she expects me to act like some cultured cosmopolitan-y mommy's boy.
Screw you mum. I really don't wanna talk about this because the only person who can piss me off at the moment, other than stupid gangster wannabes and squarish adults, is my fucking mother.
When God didn't allow me to hit you, it ISNT an implication to push your fucking luck.
So don't try to act all Serious Sally on me and spit pseudo-concerned lectures to my face.
To think that I even wanted to try to like you abit better this morning. Fuck you.
But you know, lesson learnt.

Anywaaaaay, I really dislike my Math lecturer. By now, you guys should know that I have a huge problem against adults. Too much KND[Kids Next Door]? :D
So this prick, uses a profound way of teaching secondary school math, which is annoying. Cause I'm already having problems bothering myself to give a shit about math, and he's all the reason I need to be completely nonchalant about it.
And you can just imagine this hella nerd nagging at us, saying that if we don't pay attention in class we'll be lost as fuck. Well that's funny cause that's exactly the reason why we're NOT paying attention. Math + boring old git = S.L.E.E.P! Maybe a few cuss words?

There's arent many good, bloggable issues to hog, so I'm gonna have to think of something.
Singapore's that boring! If you're living in America, or Europe or something, if there's a murder, people who reads that in the papers would be like, "Oh the usual, let's hope he dosen't fuck with our neighbourhood then.". OVER HERE, if there's a murder, people would be like, "WALAO EH GOT KEELER ON THE LOOSE LEH, WE SEE WHAT THE GAHMEN DOES!"[translated:]" Holy shit, a murderer on the loose, let's see what the government does." and NO, I don't regret making fun of "my own people", persay.
Singlish is deliciously fun to insult. So much for being unique. Well yeah I'm sure that
epic shamelessness makes Singapore wonderfully unique too?

If anyone's reading..
well I'm gonna start something new.
Got the idea from shanedawsonTV @ youtube. check him out!
I'll ask you a question, or suggest soemthing for you to blog, and you can do the same!
So, question of the day: What do you think of Twilight and Stephanie Meyer?
And, if you want, you can do a post about that.
So leave me a tag?
kthxbai<3

Umm, Fuck You? I mean, sorry

2009-10-27T23:33:00.003+08:00

Hay guys, so I know I haven't done a proper post in days.
And I'm really sorry for the delay, but it's just that I have nothing in mind to blog about.

Lessons are bitchin, so idk if I can actually blog during my lessons? But school ends at 12,
so there's a pretty good chance that I'll be posting tmr.
Thanks for all the support and stuff.
kthxbai<3

Fucken Ben's PSA

2009-10-27T08:15:00.002+08:00

Hay guys.
I know my posts are always controversial, and they always
flame Singaporeans, especially the aunties etc.
But , I need them, for without them,
WHAT THE FUCK AM I GONNA BLOG ABOUT?! :D
kthxbai<3

Too Much Hormones = Angry Sex

2009-10-25T23:00:00.002+08:00

I want to punch all obnoxious aunties and conservative adults who
hyprocritically attempt to moderate the age where teenagers learn about sex.
Fuck you!

I hate setting "GOOD EXAMPLES" cause they're the products of stereotyping.
I'm not gonna follow your stupid rules because you TELL me to. Life's a big stereotype itself.
He's a good guy because he dosen't cuss.
He's a good guy cause his hair is short.
He's a good guy cause he dosen't know what a vagina looks like.
He's a good guy cause he dosen't talk about sex.
He's a good guy cause he's neat and tidy.

Well, my hair is fucking long and messy, cunt face.
Oh wait, in one sentence, i broke all 5 stereotypes, so I'm like public enemy number 1!
CHECK!

My Tale to Tell

2009-10-23T22:45:00.002+08:00

People have been asking, well either that, or it's probably in your minds.
How do I deal with love, you know, that powerful L word, that will either make,
or break a person.
Do I get lovesick?
Do I you know, fall head over heels for a girl?

I don't know what kinda impression you have of me, mostly bad perhaps.
I know that cause I scare off some of my Christian friends. Oops?
Mainly cause I'm controversial and all.
Maybe I'm not your average 17 year old guy.
Not the let's-club-and-get-high person.
I don't go to town much, therefore I'm pretty much your country bumpkin.
But no matter how much a misfit I am to the world, I'm not exempted from love.

That's right, I fall deep in love sometimes. The usual stuff,
fall in love, get over her, fall in love again, ge- yeah.
I'll be honest, it's easy for me to get over girls. I can
like, *snap*, just like that, and I'm through.
Maybe not that quick, couple of days maybe?
But, I don't even know if I'm really that fortunate to have this nonchalance,
or am I in denial.

And I know how I've mentioned before that I hate it when people keep blogging about
how sad they are and stuff. It's not that they shouldn't blog about it at all, just, don't overdo it.
Cause for the first time in like, months, I've actually felt the sharp sting when love bites.
To be honest, I'm really, really afraid, cause I don't wanna be the horrible guy that I've been.
Old characteristics are like periodical zombies; just when you think you've buried them,
they come back to haunt you sometimes, and when they do, you're so afraid, that they might devour you and take over your soul. You remember the joy when your shovel struck the hard ground, you felt so victorious, like the old, cursed chapter of your life had been permanently
sealed, and a new one was about to begin. You try to reach for that feeling, but fear seizes you. That's how I'm feeling now.

I've never had any self-confidence to begin with. Coupled with this, my life is just about over.
Therefore, I never want to see my personal zombies ever again.
What is/are your personal zombies then?

Anyway, yes, love, you can run away from everything else,
but that. I've hurt someone and I feel shitty about it.
It's about time I took up arms to fight my zombies off.
Maybe you should too.

FACTFILE

2009-10-23T21:03:00.001+08:00

Okay faggots:
I'm ugly.
My voice sounds like dick.
I'm sensitive
I'm insecure
I'm impatient
I'm a horrible, horrible person.
I make a really bad boyfriend.

SO FUCKING GET OVER IT!

Emo Songz, literally.

2009-10-21T22:44:00.002+08:00

Hay guys!
Emoooooooo songs!
The general idea is that you stop moping around in self-pity.
So some people will tell you to listen to emo songs.
Usually, the description being something like..
"Song for broken hearts."
or something like that. And then it's some sad song.

If you ever posted things like that, then you suck balls! 8===D
WHY? Cause if someone's sad, he or she needs to cheer up. You know,
eat some ice cream, watch porn, have sex, eat more ice cream, wat-... you get
what I mean.
WHY the fuck would that person want to listen to another sad song and feel sad all
over again?
So yeah, I just felt that it was a TAD inappropriate.

AND I NEED A JOB. Fuck me, I can't emphasize enough how fucking broke I am.
So like, if you guys have a job to recommend, please, please ~~cum on my face~~ leave a tag? I'll soooo appreciate it <3

Oh and today, I've gotten another stereotype. Sheesh, but they're kinda entertaining. Shows how retarded Singapore is :D
Anyways, I told a friend of mine that I'll be wearing skinnies on Friday.
Then she was like, are you fuckin gangster wannabe?
Right there, I added another reason to the list, why I hate them, aka BENGS.
THANKS to them, we can't like things that they like. Such as, sex, techno, skinnies, alcohol, etc.
Obviously, you don't go around liking their stupid habits like swearing in hokkien, or smoking, or picking up fights, OH and my favourite: stupid tattoos. Anyways, I like skinnies and American techno. I like ~~sex~~ reading books. okay random fact.
That sucks. I mean, you can't judge a book by it's cover. But whatever, I can't be fucked to entertain squares. If you think I'm some poser then go ahead. I can also think that you're a fuckin Nazi, you like telling people that you have to be this tall to suck your dick.
But yeah, usually, guys from ITE are bengs so you know, it's hard not to judge people from there. No offence.

Anyways I gotta go to bed now. I have lessons at fuckin 8AM ):
And I need my beauty sleeeep! D:

CYA<3

Iced You Whore.

2009-10-20T21:54:00.002+08:00

Hay guys!

I honestly have no idea what to blog about today.
It was the usual, me being an asshole in class, making fun of people,
trying to hit on girls. ):

Anyway, I really don't get some people. They think swearing in hokkien is fuckin cool.
Wtshit? FUCK is sucha beautiful word, but they're degrading themselves by using redneck language? Seriously, okay all my fuckin caucasian friends, does "cheebai" sound appealing to you? I bet not. Sounds like some China auntie bargaining with the fishmonger. .______.

Okay I have no idea what I'm saying, but really, why use shitty words when there's one staring at you in the face. Or maybe it's just me: FUCK YOU.
Oh noes, I'm bad influence, I taught my friend how to swear. Good golly wonkers Momma I'm real sorreh!

Oh kids, I've got a nice lesson for you.
Today, we're comparing 2 types of girls: the cool rebels, and the fuckin gangster wannabes.
Breaking them up into compartments, we'll pit one against the other and.. you'll see.
[SMOKING]
Rebels: Too fucking cool to kill themselves.
Posers: Pays moolah for lung cancer. They don't just do it, they fucking run to the shop!

[SEX]
Rebels: With their boyfriends, sometimes.
Posers: With everyone.

[STUDIES]
Rebels: Some study, some don't, but they all have their lives planned out.
Posers: "Last weekend, I spent my days playing audi with my friends...."(class joke)

[SELF-PITY]
Rebels: Get over it within a few days. Fuck sadness.
Posers: Cut their wrists and survive to blog about it. phew!

[SUCKUP?]
Rebels: Ask them that and they'll crush your face.
Posers: Ask them that and they'll suck up to you.

[SICKNESS]
Rebels: Healthy motherfuckers.
Posers: Anorexia, Bullimia.. AIDS, Crabbs etc.

As you can see, the S experiment shows that posers are nothing more than whores.
I prefer posers, cause they'll fuck you for free. But then I'll get crabbs. NAH im just playin.
SO.. WHOSE SIDE ARE YOU ON BITCH?

I'll blog again when I have a topic. jesus.

Rocket Chick + Pantyhose

2009-10-19T23:06:00.002+08:00

Hay guys
I think my post has nothing to do with the title.
how embarrassing, I resort to cheap advertisement gimmicks. FUCK.
Anyway, have you tried, at night, to look out of the window after a refreshing shower?
Let the night breeze caress your skin and blow your problems away.
I fucking swear, I felt as if the impurities in my life have been washed away,
and during that moment, I experienced the deepest form of happiness and inner serenity.
Fuck that was beautiful. I'm hook'd on night breezes.

Idk, my life's pretty fucked. I'm born with shit I don't like, its like a fucking cage that can never be removed. I know I'm just being negative, and I'll sleep it off. But it's really really tired trying to be positive everytime without being so god damn exhausted. I know it's wrong to question God for my "predictament", but sometimes I still cave in. Why the fuck am I so nasty-looking and redundant. FUCKFUCKFUCKKKKK -.-

_________________________________________________

Nuff about all the unhappy stuff. Today's like my first day of school!
It was kinda okay, but way to start the fucking morning, with a huge stack
of math notes. MATHEFUCKINMATICS. omg):
That was depressing. But my day got better and yeah.
But I swear, I'm not gonna blog about my everyday life, it's boring as fuck.
Instead, I planned to blog about something I read in the news but fuckin forgot.
Oh wait I remember!
It's about unhappy food outlet bosses who plan to sue people who blog negatively about their food.
What the shit? It's my favourite lousy statement of all time.
I mean, if someone blogs negatively about your fucking food, especially through his blog, it obviously means he dosen't like your damn food. Unless you stole his wife or something, but you get my point. SO instead of wasting your fuckin money suing his pants off, why don't you do something about your food to make it better?
It's like, if you have a girlfriend and if she dosent like your attitude for example, are you gonna go to her parents house and fuck them up for giving birth to her? Might as well bite your fucking pride and reflect. HAHA damn I sound like some adult. But it's kinda true, unless you know she's being the whore then you can make that trip to her parents' home. :D

Anyways, I can't find anything else to rant about? I talk way too much in school, so I can't find anything to blog about. Oh speaking of blogging, I like doing that ALOT cause to be honest, I hardly have any friends, that's why blogger is my best friend! I like to hide behind my screen and ~~stalk little girls~~ interact with people.
Oh and I have no clue how many people actually DO read my blog, sometimes I get the feeling I'm talking to the fuckin wall.
But I guess that's what a blog is for, RANTRANTRANT NIGGA!

Last Day to Bang a Whore

2009-10-18T22:49:00.002+08:00

Hay guys, for all those who don't know,
today's the last day of my holidays at HOME.
Tomorrow marks the first day of holidays in SCHOOL.

I'll be going to class learning shit I don't like,
talking to lecturers I don't care,
learning stuff I don't need,
yay me!

But there's java and HTML, so it'll be useful for my blog.
STOP LAUGHING NINA. ):
Anyways, I'm sorta glad the holidays are coming to an end.
Now I can make fun of some people on a daily basis,
and I also get to check out more chicks.
Fuck, I'm going to school for all the wrong reasons.
Oh but the huge turn-off is that I hafta see some undesirable people in school.
I think I'm cursed to meet a fucking whore in every single one of my class. )))))))):

And I apologise for the short sentences, today hasnt exactly been, very pleasant.
Then again, everyday with my parents is frgn ANNOYING.
Which is one of the reasons why I look forward to school. My parents are like, fucking squares, and I'll spare you the details cause, believe you me, you don't wanna know.

On a lighter note, I CANT WAIT FOR FRENCH. I hope some cute american-asian girls would join my class. But a CERTAIN BRITISH-CHINESE girl went to fucking psychology. ):
No offence to people who take psychology, but I don't think that lessons gonna help people learn the art of it. It's more of, learning through experience. Over the years, get friends to confide in you, then you'll get better in understanding people's mindsets and hence be able to give better advice. Just saying.

So like, what have you guys been doing over the holidays? Cause I know mine's been pretty unprodictive. I generally laze around. tsk, was there even a holiday? I acted exactly how i would have acted at home, after school. STONE! the universal sign of apathy :D

NEENAH'S $.PEE.OH.TEE

2009-10-17T01:19:00.002+08:00

Hello, today I'll tell you how holy I am.

So I was walking down the street one bright and sunny morning,
when the fucking sparrows are making love in their fuzzy nests,
when the little fat dick drops his ice cream and screams at his maid
to get him another one.

Out of all that bliss, a nice guy came up to me and started evangelising to me
before I could even say that I already AM a christian.
Being the ever so polite goody two shoes, I smiled and listened..
and listened..

And I realised that all I'd been hearing was him trying to tell me to do this and that.
I nearly LMAO-ed when he showed me this article about 7DA[7 day adventists] living
til a ripe old age of like, 100+?
WAIT A FUCKING MINUTE MISTUHHH.
but dont the good die young?
8=====D
fuckin loser. I wanted to slap him so hard, but if I did, I'd be another 7DA, living til a 100.

Anyway,
I like fellowship with my homies in Christ.
Especially when they try to MAKE me clean my closet.
Teary eyed, I'll tell them how I foolishly threw my chapatti[indian crackers] bag onto the floor after eating them,
and how I repented by crushing the bits after that so as to provide labour for the sweepers.
One thing redneck about me is that I dislike it when cleaners come to work in a clean environment. In other words, they COME WITH NO JOB TO DO.
God dammit, I'll have to throw jizzed tissues out of the fucking window!

Okay maybe I was just bullshitting. I'll always be a private person religiously, for all you religious freaks out there; I love God, and that's enough to get me through life.
NO MORE stupid preaching, NO MORE pseudo-disappointed sighs, and please don't pray for me, who knows what fucked up ideas you have for me.

Oh, please pray that one day, Ben will see the light a grow up.
Dear God please straighen Ben up he's sucha stud.
Father please make him more sensible, I hope your punishment wont be too harsh.

FUCK YOU!

Hahah I'm not mad really, but is there anyone else who has the same feelings as I do? ):

Asphyxiated

2009-10-16T01:05:00.002+08:00

Wanna hear something really boring?

TODAY, I woke up at 8AM.
YOU KNOW WHY, cause I slept at 6PM yesterday.
YOU KNOW WHY, cause i didn't sleep during camp.
YOU KNOW WHY, cause I was bored.

SO, I brushed my damn teeth at 8.30AM.
YOU KNOW WHY, cause I was using the laptop for 30 minutes.
YOU KNOW WHY, cause i woke up at 8AM,
SO 8AM + 30 Minutes = 8.30! GENIUS.

THEN I HAD MY BREAKFAST AT 9AM.
YOU KNOW WHY, cause I showered at 8.30AM
YOU KNOW WHY, cause I was using the laptop at 8AM
SO, 8AM + 30minutes + 30minues = 9AM! GENIUS.

Fuck that was terrible, like a Twilight book.
Just save it, no one wants to know about your everyday life unless it has something
juicy.
And I wonder why people're like,
OMG MY BLOG'S DEAD.
ANYWAY I WOKE UP AT 8AM...

Godddddd...

I'm just kidding, people have the right to blog whatever they want, but
just saying, I find it really boring, unless you have a way of spicing it up.
holy shit I'm having a headache, blog tmr, got porn to watch. kthxbai!

I eat my legs for dinner.

2009-10-15T10:18:00.002+08:00

Hay guys!
For some time, I've been considering if I should
get a private blog to host my emo posts.
But I eventually decided against it cause I feel that I should be open about
however the fuck I'm feeling. So that you guys won't think I'm perpetually happy.
I don't do drugs.

I do girls.
HAHA kidding.
not.

Anyway yeah that's about it, rant laterz
<3

Out with the New

2009-10-14T17:54:00.003+08:00

Hay guys I apologize for that fuckin emo post.
Anyway, I was typing that half-asleep, so I think it's an accurate reflection of my feelings.
I get jealous easily, hence I'm an extremely horrible guy.

I'm going to get some well-deserved sleep now.
I like talking to people who're sensibly* rebellious. Teehee, Neenaa, LA.
Fuck me that rhymes!

kthxbai!

Unshackle Me Please.

2009-10-14T10:50:00.002+08:00

Confusion at its fullest.
I'm walking a road that knows no end,
and it's so dark that I trip at the bend.
Wallow in self-pity I will,
looking at cold hard eyes to kill.

Disorientated and weary I fall,
off the cliff of life that stands so tall.
To be seen but not remembered..
To see your heart dismembered..
To love but not to tear is a tall task indeed.

I'm not emo, twin(:

Flesh to Ashes

2009-10-13T01:49:00.002+08:00

Hay guys, I'm like, writing on a bad stomachache,
yay me.

The entire committee's up planning for camp later on in the morning.
See how fuckin boring that sounds when I blog about my everyday life?
Imagine doing that on a daily basis; I'll frgn lose all my readers, that is if I
even had any in the first place.

And for some weird reason I keep thinking that the door to the clubroom's opening.
Like whoa, freakaayyyy.
What should I blog about today? Sex, fags, racism? Been there blogged that.
In my eyes, there's nothing controversial in this world. Taboo is nothing but a cowardly
excuse to bury dark secrets for fear of the overcritical world. Makes sense no?
Some prick must have probably banged like, 10 people, including his wife, and had no balls to admit it, so he was like, "Oh honey I don't think sex is a very good topic to discuss."
and voila, TABOO!
._____. I have no fuckin idea what that was about.

Moving on, I just realised that I have no talent at all. Some people are good at music, some can sing, some can dance, some can make people laugh. Me, I just rot at home doing nothing at all, not because I'm like fuckin lazy, but because I have no talent whatsoever. I'm too lazy to procrastinate. That sounded oxymoronic. Speaking of all things oxymoron, here's a classic statement; I'm good at nothing but if that means I'm good at something does it then mean I'm bad at nothing if nothing was something? .______. that DEFINITELY didnt make sense. pssssh.
That's depressing, I'm not even good at being redundant. At lease no one can call me ego.
Not that I care. But it's kinda stupid isnt it, like when you earn your bragging rights, people say you're inflating your ego, but when you're not saying anything people say you're emoshit. Like what the fuck? That's society to your face bitch. Actually, no matter what you guys say, I'll always be an outcast of this world. It gets lonely, but I'd rather be original than to follow others on the high road to hell. And that isnt even the religious hell. It's the physical hell of your mind and it's real. It's when you're trapped within yourself, unable to enjoy the freedom of being yourself, isnt that scary?
It's fuckin real..

Interlude Part 2/Afterlife - DeniseKang

2009-10-12T02:15:00.003+08:00

So HAY guys,
I'm so so fuckin sorry I haven't been blogging.
I have been busy and more often just plain lazy.
So anyways, before returning to my routine posts, I just have a few issues to clear up.

Firstly, I just wanna say that I appreciate Annette's way of telling me not to swear so much.
Cause she's not trying to force me to stop swearing like, "Fuck if you keep swearing you'll go to hell." So thanks.
But I just wanna put this here: I know you're uncomfortable with me swearing but that's just how I am. Perhaps I'm rebellious, whenever there's a stereotype/taboo/system, I'm obliged to go against it. Maybe I'm just retarded, I don't fuckin know. But I really enjoy the person I am now, even if im missing a few screws, but at least I'm not one to fit into society and all.
Okay, I think I've emphasized that a million times.
ANYWAYS, yeah you get my point.

Moving ON, which really, there isn't cause apparently, it's fuckin 2.21am and I had a sudden urge to blog, but that URGE is GONE. Like when you have the urge to take a piss and everything flows out for like 10 seconds, after which it stops. I'm there, drained and positively bored as fuck.

Afterlife:
One of the few things that fascinate me, apart from girls, money, and well, more girls.
How would you imagine yourself kicking the good ol bucket? Could it be sacrificing your life for a loved one, like all emo kids think of? No? How about choking to death on your own dump? Realise its like smoking, just that instead of shit it's nicotine. So yeah, if you smoke, not only does it mean that you're paying for your lung cancer, but you're dying in the shittiest way ever, literally.
Oh yeah and I don't believe in reincarnation.
Imagine if God says: Daaaayum I'm not making you human again, How about the pubes growing out of your Son's.
You'll be watching him jerk off every single fuckin time.
AND GUESS WHAT, this has nothing to do with the afterlife. Oh wait it does, remotely.
The corniest death comes when you see your crush in the path of a speeding vehicle and you push her away to get knocked down yourself and ends up dying. Don't lie, I swear, EVERYONE has imagined that scene before: your crush crying over your limp corpse etc.

MOVING ON. IM REALLY EXCITED, cause I'll be staying over in school tmr. I know, I never thought I'd ever say that.When I left high school, I kept picturing the building up in flames, and the people I dislike running out with their asses on fire. BWAHAHAHA.
I'm such an asshole, but whatever.
AND FUCK ME, my sentences arent joining again. GOD THIS IS FRUSTRATING.
Oh and I really wanna get rid of my Singlish accent for good. But being in Singapore makes it really hard. SADFACE.
I SOOO envy people who can somehow make their sentences connect naturally. Mine are like, idk, all over the fuckin place. SIGH. WILL SOMEONE GOOD IN ENGLISH TEACH ME? ):

Pop goes the Weasel

2009-10-09T00:05:00.002+08:00

Anyways, I watched a show yesterday,
and my Mother told me something which kinda made me think[RARE, I KNOW]
She said, "A doctor should date someone of an equal or higher calibre, that way their dates wouldn't feel left out during a social gathering."

Right there, I've found another reason why I hate people of higher statuses.
It just bothers me when I walk past these people and I can sense their aura of
self-proclaimed almightiness. I get the feeling that normal bumpkins like me
will never be able to communicate with them cause they're just plain snobbish.
Okay, maybe I'm stereotyping; some of them are actually really nice. But c'mon,
those are minority. My friend's father's kinda rich, and he changes his cell phone once
every 2-3 months? BECAUSE HE LIKES THE COLOR.
For one, judging from his fugly Hyundai Tuscon, his taste is like die-REAR.
And secondly, it shows how spoilt he is. I wonder what his face would be like when
he's stripped of his wealth. :D -> D:

Moving on, I really don't wanna evolve from my teenage years. I'm actually afraid.
What if I end up becoming one of those obnoxious adults I hate to the core, what if I
myself end up as detestable as them? I really really pray my rebellious streak isnt just a passing phrase. I get to see things from so many angles, and it changes my perspective of life.
An adult's mind is rigid, because he only believes in one proper way to live life, and that is reflected on every parent's mindset: study hard, get to a good college, a good university, be a lawyer, and rake in the big bucks. Well, kids aren't your money-making tool for your retirement funds so suck on that. It's just annoying, when parents force their children to take up lessons when they have obviously no interest in it, like piano, abacus, violin and the like.
So instead of stretching their potential, parents are just cramming pointless things in them.
I guess that's why I hate adults so much, because they'll never understand us as much as they claim to. They can't say that just because they were once teenagers, hence they know us very well. Each person is well, unique, in his or her own right, so there's no way you'll ever be remotely close.

Just my two cents worth.
I think you'll know more about me from here. This is the reason for my being.
The generation gap's getting too far for comfort, so lets burn the bridges.
And yes I noticed i haven't swore at all during the course of this post.
It's not because I gave up swearing, but rather, I'm forcing myself to finish this post without any inspiration whatsoever. yay me.

Faded

2009-10-08T23:49:00.002+08:00

Hay guys.
I'm not gonna be ranting today. Or maybe I am, I don't fucking know.
But..

To all those people whom happiness eludes:

I don't know what your problems are,
I don't know what's it like to walk a mile in your battered shoes,
I don't know when the tunnel's gonna end and the rays of the light rekindled,
I can't re-live those sleepless nights you dreaded the most,
but I know that I'll be here to lend a listening ear,
a shoulder to cry on,
and a body to punch.

So the next time you feel like death, just remember that you're not alone. (:
Text me, call me, IM me. I'll be there.

Fuck

2009-10-03T22:57:00.000+08:00

I'm not in the blogging mood nao.
Shall blog tmr I guess?
Hay pearlyn I still remember your topic. =)

Eggs - Requested by TWIN

2009-10-02T22:57:00.003+08:00

Hay guys.. AGAIN.
I still have some randomness left so hopefully, I can get this post up without digressing.
Anyway, EGGS EGGS FUCKIN EGGS. Nothing can describe my love for eggs. I virtually use it for ANYTHING. Eggs with bread, eggs with rice, eggs with noodles, eggs with salad, eggs with porn, you name it.
An actual serious sentence: Eggs are a good source of protein so for anyone who wants to maximize their workout after-effects, pop an egg like, right before you hit the gym, OR, within
30 minutes after working out.

RIGHT.

YOU KNOW WHAT PISSES ME OFF? When fuckin scientists pile health claim after health claim. Dosent it suck, when food you like always end up harmful? Like, too much eggs give you high cholesterol, too much red meat causes cancer, sausages causes cancer, msg causes cancer, luncheon meat causes cancer. WHAT.THE.FUCK. SCIENTISTS CAUSES CANCER, THATS FUCKIN WHAT. Im not saying that being a vegan sucks, but we should have a balanced diet, instead of ranting about how sad those farm animals are. Look, if God wanted the world to be vegans, then why do most vegtables taste like SHIT?
Don't get me wrong, I really like some of them, like lettuce, long beans, bean sprouts, stuff like that, but I fuckin hate carrots, peas, corns, parsley, and celery. God they're so nasty.
And vegan meat tastes like fuck. If you don't already know, vegan meat are meade of FLOUR. It's actually more unhealthy cause they use flavourings and such? SO SUCK ON THAT. Why the fuck would I not want to eat 300g of STEAK! OMG

Oh yeah, do you know what egg whites actually are?
They're the sperm from the cock, like, the male CHICKEN GET OVER IT.
And no I won't be grossed out over the fact, I love eggs too much to give them up.
So yeah, whenever you're eating that delicious cheese omelette, and you know, halfway through it gets sticky.. it's not the cheese.
HAHA just playin. I used to hate bread, WHY? Cause my mum told me that eggs were used in the bread. So I bit, and I bit, and I fuckin couldnt detect the eggy smell.
Eww Ben, that little queer. - Ben

In all, I just wanna say that I really fuckin love eggs, cause they're delicious and nutritionally-beneficial and therefore YOU SHOULD LOVE IT TOO! ): okay, maybe everyone has their own preference. Just like how I never get why people love breadded flavouring huh.
Ciao again <3

Global Fuckin Warming - Requested by Kok Pin

2009-10-02T22:05:00.003+08:00

Hay guys welcome to a fresh new ~~fuckin boring~~ topic!
Btw, Kok Pin has a wicked afro.. just putting it out there.

Anyway, global warming. Please, whoever the fuck you are, I bet you're gonna go back to youtube, or youporn, or whatever.

Global warming is caused when toxic gas penetrates the vagina of the world, aka, the fuckin
ozone layer. No actually Singapore is. That fuckin red dot, it's like the crabbs of the ozone layer.
Daaaaaayum that's infected!
Anyways seriously, I don't have proper ideas for this topic cause to be honest, there's no real solution/cause for/of global warming. Shitty campaigns that governments splurge millions on are just about as helpful as most Singaporeans. VIRTUALLY NO HELP WHATSOEVER. PHWOARRRRRR.
Global warming is an incurable disease which kills the same way a cigarette does.
People can only sustain the damage done. It's like, the fuckin hymen's broken, so basically, they're trying to put the cap into the vagina cause when the ozone gets fucked, the DAMAGE won't be so bad. But like ALL other contraceptives a percentage of that damage seeps through. So it's a sad truth, but the hole in the ozone will get bigger and bigger.
Wait... does this EVEN have anything to do with global warming? I don't even fuckin know.
Oh but if the water level rises it's gonna wipe out Singapore FUCK YEAH.

Oh.. my bad, that's pollution. Oh my LORD I'm SORRY Kok Pin, it seemed like I've been bullshitting for the entire erm, half of this post. Anyway,
I kinda welcome global warming, it's like randomizing the Earth's climates, and one day, if Singapore is still holding out, it might just snow here. Do you have any idea how fuckin humid it is here? I've been to Melbourne, and even when the Sun's shining right at me, it's still COLD. But everywhere I go here, i fuckin sweat like as if the pores were 50 cent coins!
Okay sorry that was graphic.
But here's what's gonna happen. If everyone were to sweat as much soon all the hot sweat will melt the ice caps, and that's not all, sweat from Asia especially, will ruin the world. Can you imagine billions sweating at the same time? How sick is that? GALLONS of SWEAT, will eventually flood countries after countries and they will end up in the ocean.
NEXT TIME you see bottled water, DONT FUCKIN BUY THEM, you might end up drinking someone else's sweat. Mongolian essence? sounds hella dank, you might just pick up the scent of genkhis khan...'s corpse.

Kay ciao<3

Mean, mean Man

2009-10-01T19:34:00.005+08:00

Hay guys, I actually felt sorry for a surveyor today.
Him: Hi, can I have a moment of your time to answer some questions?[in mandrin]
Me:Uh sorry I dont speak Mandrin..
Him:Oh thats okay I can talk to you in English. Where're you from?
Me:I'm from China .____.

I really didnt realise that until my friend was laughing her ~~tiny~~ ass off.
I accidentally fucked around with a surveyor, and I honestly felt bad.
But I'm just sorry he bumped into me at the wrong time.
I was walking around, looking for places for The Amazing Race; an activity for my camp.
I was tired, sweaty, and my legs had been completely raped by the endless walking.
So I'm sorry. Next time, I'll apologize after fucking you up mmkay?
Naw just playin, I usually respond to their stupid questions. teehee!

I saw a family of Japanese on the train today, and they were fuckin LOVABLE.
The mother had to look after three kids, but she was still smiling. That is why Singaporeans are so loathsome, they fuckin complain at every single shit, like literally EVERY single shit.
If you go to, www.singaporeseen.stomp.com.sg/singaporeseen , you'll see pointless complaints pouring in everyday.
Things like:
'Schoolgirl eats sweets in train, isn't she afraid of the fine that awaits?'
Course, it was filled with grammar errors. This is how I think originally went,
'Scholgril eaten swett at train, why she no afraided of the money penerty[penalty] that is to awaiting?'
I'm not fuckin exaggerating, some locals are that bad at English. And they're like, "Ohh shame on people who can't speak Mandrin instead." Bitch please, which language is fuck in?
Yeah so FUCK YOU, ChinaCunt. People like you, are basically the rednecks of Singapore.
Pop a beer and fuck beer aunties, hella sweet huh.

Anyway this isn't gonna be a long post cause I need help from you guys.
See, I'm gonna try something new[short-lived as usual]. But while it lasts, I want you guys to tag me, giving me a topic to blog about. I'll type it up there, who it was requested from.
So yeah. do me that favour please <3.

EDIT* I FUCKING HATE IT WHEN BLOGGER DELETES SEGMENTS OF MY POST.
OMG FUCK YOU, FUCK YOU! ):
It was about Miss Singapore. I'm just gonna rush through this one.
So basically she gave a stupid, senseless retort to all the criticisms she had citing her poor English.
She was like, "Oooooh yeah my English's so bad that I got an A1 for my O levels[High School Finals for Americans]."
Okay Ris Low..Class English, that was so elementary school. Nobody uses that retort anymore, it just shows your desperation to reclaim your virtually non-existent reputation.
And we ALL don't give a fuck about your English grades. You probably paid for your As, just like how you paid for your fuckin Miss Singapore Crown. Suck a dick, whore, you definitely act like one. That's probably why your credit cards were maxed out and you had to nick other people's to buy your fuckin vibrators.
You don't really need them though, you're gonna get laid pretty soon, mostly by Singaporean rednecks, but you'll get used to it.

So I'mma leave this here for you lovely motherfuckers to pile on the topics! <3

Honey, I won the state elections! - Politician
Omg honestly? - Wife
Hey, why bring that up? ): - Politician

Nuff said.

Out of Nowhere

2009-09-30T01:06:00.004+08:00

Haythar!
I'm VERY bored now, so I'll see what my brain has in store today.
Oh wait I dont have a brain. Or something like that.
Just playin.

My childhood isnt really wonderful.
I remember, back when I was in pre-school,
I'd throw toys at this guy in my class. One time, i made him cry, and my teacher had to phone
my mum to rat on me. I should've thrown the toy at her.__.

And then when I was 8, I'd buy this bottle of sugary drink, cause I FUCKIN FEEL LIKE IT. actually no I was just thirsty. Anyway, my dad didnt allow me to buy those so I had to lie to him;
Son, what did you buy that costs a dollar?
Oh uhm Dad, ~~a pack of cheap condoms~~ five fishballs.
Obviously, I couldn't lie, and I got whipped by his belt for that.

My favourite memory, is when I learnt to swear aged 4.
Kay so I was watching this episode of Power Rangers, and one of the masked madmen
got hurt. Frankly, I was pissed. sidenote: glimpses of insanity from a tender age.
So i tried to form a word, but I couldn't, in the end I made up random pronounciations and somehow mouthed a 'WHAT THE FUCK'
Believe you me, my mother was next to me and she wasnt impressed.

I think it's great to be a kid. While I'm glad the theoratical mugging days are over, but I miss those times when I can flirt and then blame it on my brand new stage of puberty. I miss kicking stones in the basketball court. I miss making staple 'landmines' and placing them on someone's chair. Mean, but fuckin hilarious.

Poly's still hella fun. I wished there were more caucasians though. I swear, I can't communicate with many people cause they all speak mandrin. HAHA oh, you know, the reason mandrin exists because the people from China can't speak proper english, so the words sounded garbled and fucked. All of a sudden, Chairman Mao had a gnarly idea.
"Let's take these failure sounding words, and reshape them into our OWN language, Mandrin!"
heil China. I wonder what else's gonna be fake?

EXTRA EXTRA WOMAN GETS FIRST REAL LOOKING PENIS.. only to find out that it IS real. A Mr Liu Xi Men[nevermind if you dont get it] requests that some kind soul return his penis back to him.

I'm fuckin bored. I'm like the only free person right nao. Fuck my uncle, apparently he forgot that he has already reserved a place in his company for my cousin and I and have since hired two more workers to fill that slot.
YAY ME.

Is being an escort easy? I mean, you get your face shoved into a fat lady's tits every 5 minutes, while she sits on you singing a mandrin sob shit by JJ Fuckin Lin or something.

>>BREAKING NEWS: not really.
But I think the way Singaporeans claim that Singlish makes them unique is quite dumb.
It's more of an excuse knowing that your sentences will ALWAYS sound like shit. I mean, if your accent is somewhat normal despite occasional singlish usage here and there, then that's fine. But if you're some stupid aunty flailing her flabby arms wildly while demanding her discount then you should really shut the fuck up. If this is uniquely Singapore, it must be in a queer way.
I'm fuckin tired, so I'mma go ~~masturbate~~sleep now. Don't forget to tag!
ciao amigos<3

INTERLUDE

2009-09-29T01:22:00.004+08:00

I dont know what to say. I honestly came here with nothing in mind. HAHA,
fuckin spontaneous much?

Anyway, for those of you who're hella conservative,
fuck isn't a vulgarity. It might be crude, yes, but that's what makes it
so good to use. DUH.

I have a theory behind all this.
Fuck basically means: Fornication Under the Crown of our Kings. None of them are taboo words. Except fornication. But if it's vulgar then sex would have to be vulgar. Imagine, like a survey which askes for your sex.
Would you then go, uh sorry I can't fuckin answer your controversial question.
Okay, maybe it has a different meaning, but people are too squarish to comprehend that.
Like, the moment you ask that question in a train, like,
HEY YOU LOOK BUTCH, WHAT'S YOUR SEX[not gender cause it has 2 fuckin syllabus]. Just playin, but if you were to ask that, you'll be getting dirty looks from everyone.
Someone might even take a picture of you and post it on STOMP: Teenager's bold question in a public train
Speaking of public, I've come to a conclusion that I don't need to care about the general public opinion. Cause if I do, then I'll technically be fretting over ONE person's opinion. Why? One person remarks and the rest agrees.
I really applaud people with different views cause it shows that they're not fuckin posers, by trying to imitate everyone.

I wonder why some people just dont get that if the heart's not willing the result's gonna suck huge balls.
STOP FORCING PEOPLE ALREADY. We're like, accountable for our own actions anyway. So why try fruitlessly to see YOUR stand. I have my own values and morals and I do share them, but I don't force em down people's throats. If i did, I'll be a hypocrite cause I basically believe in originality.

So yeah, back to my topic, I don't care what others think. Unless it's a sensible comment. Not,
Eww you're disgusting/childish/retarded/weird/sick in the mind. OR, MY ALL TIME FUCKIN FAVOURITE:
How're you gonna be successful in future, you're fading from God, I'm disappointed in you. Like WHOA.
I don't really have anything to say to that comment, cause I can't be fucked to argue. Like, think whatever you want, but you're gonna be the only pissed off motherfucker in the end, while i sit back and jack off to porn,
not giving a fuck about anything.

oh and I find it hilarious when people call me childish, and then they try to act like they're mature, but fail so bad? I like that phrase "act your age". Kay why the fuck should I? I can be whoever i wanna be. Nuff said.
There was this guy in high school, trying to mature. Seeing as IM NOT, he gives me a dirty look cause I'm supposedly immature.
Fuckin joke, cause the way one acts physically, does not reflect his whole mentality of life.
Like, I could be acting all psychotic in public, but I really like listening to people's problems and contemplating life. Maybe it's just my split personality, HAHA. not really, but my point is that you shouldnt judge a book by its cover. And no, I'm not trying to justify my actions cause I dont see the need to account to anyone.

WHOA, I think this will be a long post.
my penis is so long that when i stretch it on a keyboard, it goes from A-Z- EPIC WIN.
There're tons of movies I wanna watch. Anyone free? ):
Really if i get really bored ill start pasting hair on Barbie's armpits and her dungeon of love.
Looking for daring people to disgust the public please!

Intolerance

2009-09-25T23:54:00.002+08:00

Hay guys.
I just realised that I tend to have tons of things which I can't stand at all.
If you have been talking to me for a long time, you'll know what I mean.
And it's not all that bad either, I mean, who the fuck likes everything?

Everyone has like, a custon fuse, which will be blown by different things.
For example, racists blow up when they see 'inferior races' walking down the street.
Terrorists blow up, well, when they see a crowd.

As for me, I'm a combination of both. nah just playin.
But apart from the rest of the pet peeves that I've been posting about for a million times,
I really HATE fitting in. It fuckin bugs me when people shun 'different' individuals.
Which is fine, I get to know who're my true friends, other than bootlickers.
Anyway, to all of you who tries desperately to fit in, dont. Stop making a fuckhead outta yourself. You were born different from the rest so fuckin be different. Imagine, early in his years, a 6 year old tries to fit in?
Cool guy: Omg I love black.
potential fuckhead: Actually, I love lime green but since you're so cool Imma like black as well.

See how fuckin stupid that is? It's the same thing nao, just on a whole new level.
Don't be a fuckin dumbass, be who you are today, and all flavours to this shit of a country.
Or migrate!
The problem with Singaporeans is that they're too shy to stand out. Look at America,
so many different types of people. Though some arent necessarily good, but at least they're diverse. We, on the other hand, are classified under ONE group: ugly singaporeans.
Frankly, I'm really ashamed to be here.
I'll be the first to admit that I'm not a partriot and never will be. If people invade us, I'm gonna
get the hell outta here :D
but let's get real, nobody buys that "die for our country" bullshit anymore.

Which shows that conscription isnt gonna work. How the fuck are non-patriots gonna
fight for their country? It's not like National Service is gonna change their minds, so in the event of a war, we're ALL running away. It's like forcing someone who dosent like mandrin to learn it and work in china. EVERYTHING wouldnt add up.
So yeah, I have tons of pet peeves. enjoy. .___.

Away from the Norm

2009-09-24T01:08:00.002+08:00

Today, I'm gonna talk about all the exciting things that had happened to me
over the holidays.

I watched paint dry. the end
Fuckin boring.

WHERE THE FUCK ARE MY HANDCUFFS?!?!?!):

That Fuckin Nerd

2009-09-23T00:24:00.002+08:00

Hay guys, I was wondering, what if I could have mah split personalities magnified here.
hmmmm......

_____________________________________

Good day everybody, my name is Ben, and I am so excited to be blogging,
even though I really much prefer reading the encyclopedia. I have read it a
grand total of 67435 times. Did you know, that's the exact amount of IQ I have.
I am still unsure if IQ can be counted. I haven't really got the time to do an extended
research on that. That is because I'm rather busy with the annual science fair.
I'm helping this very nice company build a mechanical horse. But for some reason,
instead of a horse, I'm supposed to use a rather long stick of corn, expect that it's twice
as long and it's pale, like the color of my happysacks. I don't really like that word,
because it sounds inappropriate ghetto name for such a magnificent body part, the testicle.

Enough about that, I shall now lament about my days in school. As a budding genius, I am,
as expected, constantly bullied. That's okay though. Personally, I find that kind of action childish, and I try to tolerate, thanks to the superb advice my mother gave to me: He who laughs last laughs best. So, instead of using my mega punch on them, I wait til the last bell rings, and then I start laughing. HAH! I WIN!

Back to present, I am going to tell you what I'm good at. I can make people laugh, and I am very proud about that. Let me tell you, my jokes are top notch. Okay here's one: What did one weed addict say to another? Why the bong face! Please stop laughing now, I need to continue my story. But that's understandable, I have that effect on everyone. In fact, when people see me, they already start laughing before I can tell another one of my classic jokes.
I dislike distasteful jokes, I really do. I hate it when delinquents misuse the elements of the
periodic table for their senseless jokes. Last christmas, the class jerk Rob told me to have a Merry Bismuth. What the fornication is that supposed to mean? He is such a queer. I don't get it though, why is he so popular? Maybe cause he's the first to respond to my jokes, by that I mean he laughs the hardest when he sees me. Then I should be popular, because I have such a dominating effect on him. I think I'm invited to his birthday party later, but I have not gotten an invitation. I think that is because he knows how popular I am, and he needs to get permission to enter my house.
That happens in school too. Nobody goes near me.
Well I'm sorry everyone, I have to go prepare for the party. I will be getting him a science book about lesbian cows.
Goodbye all!

Bite Back

2009-09-21T21:54:00.004+08:00

Today is one of those days where I happen to remember all the shit that happened to me,
and though I appreciate the good things i have despite that, I still feel that overwhelming sense of bitterness coursing through my body.

And mother, enough, is fucking enough.
For the millionth fuckin time, NO IM NOT CUTTING MY DAMN HAIR.
Kay so my relatives were in a way pressurizing me to cut my hair.
Imagine fuckin aunties all around you telling you how your long hair looks like a
mop, and my mum thinks those are FRIENDLY ADVICES.

Well fuck you, it's my HAIR, and NOT YOURS.
So basically, let me state this out for you, I can do whatever the fuck I like
with my hair and you can't do shit. Oh what's that, you want to send me
to the boy's hostel cause apparently I'm getting out of hand by
FLYING OFF THE HANDLE, and doing something I LIKE.
Kay first of all bitch, I haven't been given that opportunity for ages.
Everytime I try to do something unconservative, you disapprove, and I had no
choice but to comply. Oh and if you haven't already noticed, it's my FUCKIN LIFE,
and not yours either, so don't act like you own any.
If you ever snoop around my blog, yes I'm here to suck your money dry, and then
I'm moving somewhere far away, where I'm free from your shit. OMFG BEN YOU'RE SO IMMATURE AND SHALLOW SPAZZZZZ.

There's a limit for everything. There's only so much shit I can take before I fuckin snap.
And there isnt anything I can do cause my mum thinks she's right and I'm too immature to be right.
Too long have I been pelted at with shit. It's time to bite back.
Motherfucker.
ps Mum, I really hate you, from the bottom of my heart. Now and forever.

Virginity Cancer

2009-09-21T01:55:00.003+08:00

Hay guys, like my title?
I thought of it myself.
JUST PLAYIN.
But here's my analogy:
A virginity will inevitably die.
Like this:
-I'm sorry Osama, you have brain cancer, mainly cause your fuckin turban suffocated your skull, goddammit.

RANDOMMM
Kay back to the point. &edit. I realise it dosent make sense at all. fuck this.
But whether you like it or not, everyone's virginities are dying off, or some sort.
Everytime you wank or watch a porno, it inches towards death.
And when you finally pop the question..
NO NOT THE MARRIAGE SHIT.
>>"would you like to has sex?"
IT DIES.
Notice the process is gradual, just like cancer. YAY omg i got it to make sense imma motherfuckin genius GAHAHAHA. kidding.
Oh yeah, if you guys havent already noticed, I blog whatever that comes to my mind, that explains why my posts are so random.
I don't like blogging about pre-planned stuff. it's so BORING.
Being spontaneous adds a fuckload of fun to any typical conversation.

"Nice day isnt it?"
"yes, omg did you know that I have fingers?"
*Starts spazzing.

I need to find someone to run the streets with. It's good exercise, and I needa find someone quick, cause I'm getting hella fat.
I'm pisssed with my mum. Apparently, having bitching hair is disturbing, and shes making it so fucking obvious that she dosent like it. Well fuck her, that's EXACTLY why I'm leaving my hair to grow. Just kidding, I was gonna do it regardless.
Right so, I've lost my inspiration to blog cause I'm kinda sleepy, and I don't wanna accidentally blog about how i wanked over lesbian porn.
Oh fuck did I just type that? OH NOEZ.
kthxbai<3>

A green orange

2009-09-20T01:53:00.003+08:00

Hay guys, I think some people don't make sense, like my title.
Whoa, that was a one sentence topic.

Anyway, does it bother you, that some people don't appreciate things that you do.
Like, when you're trying to help out in a relationship problem, like you always have.
Just that this time, you mess up a TINY bit, and then she goes running to her boyfriend
complaining. Oh and btw, she used to be your EPIC close friend.

Bonerkill much? I hope she dies ugly.
Nah I'm kidding, let's solve this maturely shall we?
OMGFUCKYOUBITCH!
WHOOOOOOA, that FELT so fuckin GOOD.
Kidding again! Shit, I never take a crisis seriously.
"Okay class we have to leave the building, cause it's on fire"
"But Miss Johnson, I'm not done WANKING!"

See how messed up I am?
I wanna be a radio DJ, so I can diss every fuckin person I hate and then claim
that they're just analogies.
Good gollee Bennie you're sucha meanie.

I really wanna migrate, to America preferably.
Cause here, I'll have to worry that the TOY handcuffs I ordered for my pair of jeans will be
INTERCEPTED by security. I hope you handcuff a terrorist with those babies.
Then they'll fuckin escape and bite your balls off, and blow up an airport.
WAITWAIT, that's not gonna work, I can't fly to America then.

Ben, I DEMAND that you recite the pledge.
Okay,
I pledge allegiance to the flag of the United States of America.
Comprende, cabron?
Fuck Singapore

Ooooh, anybody wanna get on STOMP with me?
If you don't know what that is, it's a portal for freakishly childish adults to submit privacy-intruding pictures of people and then pointing fingers at them without proof at all.
Either that, or they're just hella petty.
So yeah, I think I'll do something stupid and swear at an aunty perhaps?
IM WORKING ON IT!

Hop on the bandwagon

2009-09-19T10:56:00.002+08:00

Singapore is a hypocrite.
First the government tells us not to give a shit when Malaysia attempted to
salvage their fading glory[if they ever had any].
Now they're trying to be defensive by stubbornly holding on to their patents. This right after
telling us that it dosen't fucking matter. Wow man, what else can I say about my fabulous country.
Suck on my balls, shitheads.

That Malaysian Tourism Minister reminds me of an obnoxious, obese aunty who always
demands for her ways. Fuckin bitch. Personally, I couldnt care less where these food belong to,
I eat em if it's nice. God, fuckin kids.

Well, anyway, I don't usually blog about mindless political games but I'm kinda pissed off now, mainly cause GTA keeps crashing on my fuckin com. I really hate Vista. ):

EMO/SCENE CLEANUP-Nathan Owens

2009-09-16T01:20:00.003+08:00

Hay guys.
People've been calling me emo, cause of my hair and tight pants.
Just throwing it out; emo is a state of mind, not a dress style.
Nuff said.

I don't like being in this scenario, where someone refuses me something,
but dosent give a logical explanation, so it's frustrating, cause you have
no fuckin clue why they're not giving you what you want?

I'm scared. No really, I wince at the thought of having to repeat some riduculously insane modules next semester. Freeaaaaaky.
I havent done a decent post in like, days, and I apologise, I'm trying hard to find my inspiration to type something lenghty, but until then, ciao! <3

Restricted

2009-09-11T21:06:00.003+08:00

Motherfuggah, I can't pierce.
I'm sorry mum, I will be a conservative buttfuckin puto from now.
FUCK.
FUCK.
FUCK.
FUUUUCK.

So anyways, that aside, I'm finally getting myself occupied, with porn...
I'm just kidding; well there's TriFactor coming up on Sunday, and camp meeting a couple of days later.
necesito a consiga una vida I needa get a life.
I think that's the only Spanish sentence I know how to say, other than swearing and counting to ten. Omg i love other languages, as well as to speak English in an American accent.
One of my pet peeves in Singapore is the fact that smelly Singaporeans speak with that retarded Singlish accent, so even though there isn't any mistake in their grammar it still sucks cow nipples.
No offence to my wonderful friends who have that accent, i still love you guys <3

I hate being used too. Some friends come to me for help, but when they're all fuckin happy, I get thrown aside. Motherfuckers, I'm gonna sieve my friends. I really dont need pricks in my life. If you fit the bill, you don't like me and I sure as fuck dislike you too. So really, disappear.

On a brighter note, i'm really looking forward to the stuff ahead.
Ooh, I'm the Amazing Race IC, so I'm gonna make them binge and then jump til their appendicitis(es) burst. BWAHAHAHAHA.

Change v0.1

2009-09-09T00:06:00.003+08:00

If humans were computers I'd have a permanent virus.
Attempts to change us would be the huge stack of antivirus wares.
Parents would be the customers.
Authorities would be the obnoxious salesmen claiming that those wares
would do wonders to your defunct computer.
But if the virus had already done damage to the computer, no anti-virus software would
be able to help.
But just WHO is the bad guy? The virus? The software? OR the motherfuckin salesmen who
manipulate minds in a bid to CONVINCE you, that these methods work.

That's why you see the principal, talking about morals, that's why you see posters and hear shit on the radio; higher power trying to sell their useless ideas of good morals and discipline.
Question is, does it really work? Are their children saints? Do they even teach parents the right way to use the software?
Even if they do, the damage's done. you NEED a REBOOT, not a fuckin software.
In other words, think about salvaging the situation instead of trying to force down more discipline. See that's the problem with CHANGE. Some people are just too fanatical about it.
PARENTS, especially, they don't realise the root of the problem. If I were to steal, then find out WHY i'm stealing, instead of shallow threats like the CUTTING of allowance.
I don't even know If I'm making sense cause I having a mental block. SO MUCH FOR INSPIRATION. HAHA ):

*EDIT: For the millionth time, i dislike people who tells me to change for their selfish gains.
Parents, mostly for their 'face'.
Society, so you can fit in.
I mean, it's bad enough that you harbour such sick thoughts. But don't fuckin pressurize me to change. There's no me without me, you know, I am who i AM, not who you ~~ASK~~force me to be.
Why cant everyone accept the fact that everyone's different, so the world would be more colorful.
If you're living in a cage, please break free.
libérese e ir volando Break free and fly away.

Okay seriously.. change..
hmm..

It's definitely not something I'll do for the world.
Like if you're changing a flaw, it's okay.
But if you want me to change to PLEASE you,
bitch PLEASE .___. Random, cause both have the word please in them. =/
I find it funny when desperate guys always ask this retarded question
"TELL ME WHATS WRONG, ILL CHANGE FOR YOU I PROMISE"
Puto, consiga una vida
If you could you'd have done it ages ago.
ha terminado, da para arriba, give the fuck up.

I hope the translator's working.
HAHA I WANNA LEARN LANGUAGES I SWEAR.

Questions

2009-09-07T23:03:00.002+08:00

Hay all!
Just a shame, that there isn't much to be happy about these days.
I mean there IS, but scarcely, other than the fact that I have beautiful friends.
But really, there's nothing much to say.
I spend my holidays thinking alot.

Why can't people be more reasonable.
Life's a battlefield, and it starts at home.

Compromise.

2009-09-03T22:58:00.002+08:00

You heard it right, compromise.
Has everyone forgotten the word even existed?
AND AGAIN it's because I'm supposedly REQUIRED
to get myself a nice haircut,
nice being everything that pleases them.
Time and again, Mum and Dad, you guys never fail
to disappoint me. You always say that I'm immature, that whatever y'all do
will BENEFIT me in the long run, and apparently, I'll thank you for it?

You don't even know me. You scoff at my dreams, my plans, EVERYTHING.
And now you wanna replace my broken dreams with your own twisted ones?
The Bible teaches kids to honor their parents, but WHY ISNT IT THE OTHER WAY ROUND.
It gives parents the "back-up" they need to do as they please. cause "whatever it is we're your PARENTS."

I'm through with you. Eat my shit.

MY CRUSH requested by CHERYL KANG

2009-09-03T01:34:00.004+08:00

HAY GUYS.
Today, I'm going to talk about a really weird topic, mainly cause
it's paradoxical, but I SHANT tell you why.

What can I say about crushes. No matter who your crush is, they're always seen as
gorgeous, even though sometimes reality seems to suggest otherwise. whoops.
Of course, that isnt the case for me!

I don't get why people treat their crushes well for their own selfish agendas.
Like the moment they get rejected, they'll probably not talk to their crushes anymore,
and even if they DO, it's to tell them how fucking emoshit they are.
Like THIS:
Hey, you know, that really hurt alot, I can't bear the pain, so I'm slitting my arms, and my feet, and while I'm at that I'll cut an apple for myself.
Redundancy much?
liking someone is like giving an apple to her, if she gives it back, eat it or throw it away, don't keep holding it in your hand. In other words, if you're rejected, get a fucking life and move on, cause if you dont let go, the apple will rot in your hands.

I believe that if you like someone, you should care for that person unconditionally, with no strings attached.sometimes it DOES get a lil uncomfortable but it's worth it.

My gf crush is like a reflection of myself. I think its really rare to find people that think like you do.
Especially for someone like ME, having supposedly weird ideas about life and all.
Oh and did I mention, I like good listeners. Cause every once in awhile, shit happens, and I don't wanna bottle my problems up, not that I wanna get sympathy hugs or anything, I just feel that sharing it with someone's gonna do me more good. amd besides, people who bottle their problems tell it to their special someone anyway>.>. That said, I have BUSY days ahead. I have a really nice person to be there for, like I always have been.
Teehee!

Aftermath

2009-09-02T11:57:00.002+08:00

I'm crushed, but the mere fact that I can't join DMC til next year.
All this time, my lecturers, people at SAC have been giving me hope,
that I'll be able to make a transfer next sem.
So now I hafta come to terms with it and mug for modules I DONT ENJOY.

I wonder what kinda disaster will I be spared from with the delayed transfer,
like, is CASS gonna BURN to the ground or something? Is that it?
I hope next sem's gonna be alright. Looks like I've trusted the wrong system.
Like a stupid child, I've walked right into a trap that never ceased to close in on me.
But I guess it's mostly my fault cause I fucked up and made one of the worst choices
I could ever make.
Half of me feels that it isnt that bad cause I got to make some cool friends.
The other half just wants to tear myself apart. Day in day out, all I'm hearing is words I can't comprehend, instructions I can't follow, no matter how fucking hard I try.
Now it's stuck like an obsessed spouse; I wanna break free, tell her to get the hell away, but I
can't, she just won't let go of me.
Fucking bummed,
these days ain't so happy anymore.
God help me

Fail

2009-09-02T11:53:00.000+08:00

Got this in the morning.

"Unfortunately, the DMC course does not have a second intake for this coming semester. Course transfers to DMC is done at the start of every new acad year and we accept transfer students the same way as O level students... i.e. based on O level results.

If you really want to take the DMC course, I'd offer the same advice... stay in your DMIT course (otherwise you'll be enlisted for NS), do as well as you can in your current course, and pass all your modules, including GEMS. This way, if you're accepted into the DMC course, you can apply for exemptions from certain modules (eg. ONOW, IDEA, GEM)."

WHAT.THE.FUCK.

Ten Seconds of Fame.. or like, 9.45324

2009-09-02T02:51:00.002+08:00

HAY GUYS.

It's coming on 3 in the morning. And I have NOTHING to blog about.
Damn, I really need those red bull things.
Wanna know why my title is as such? Cause that's how long its gonna take for you to read this post, sucka.

Proper update tmr. =)

Rabbits requested by CHERYL KANG

2009-08-30T16:11:00.003+08:00

Hay guys!
I'm gonna try new shit today.
Cause last night, I struck up a deal with Cheryl that if either of us
were to run outta topics, we'd give each other some random topic to blog about.
Which is fun, to be honest, only then will you know what's really in my mind, prematurely.
BY THE WAY, if you're wondering, there's nothing.

ANYWAY, I must be some twisted asshole cause I don't picture cute fluffy critters when rabbits
come to my mind, but PLAYBOY mags, which in turn leads me to my favourite pastime of all.
You make my peepee go doing doing doing! - Eminem

Oh my old piano teacher owned a couple of bunnies. I cant believe they like carrots.
I mean, personally, I hate carrots cause they taste like.. CARROTS. My mum told me that
i used to love carrots when I was little.. probably laced with MSG. teehee
Right, I have no idea what to say. Bunnies have little room for expansion, unlike my exclusive organ.
I wonder why sex is taboo, or so most people want us to THINK.
Scenario:
Me: *Tells sick joke*
A: Omg all you think about is sex, EWWWWWW
Me: Do you watch porn?
A: NO DUH.
a while later...
A: Oooooh check out that hot girl with big tits
-.-
don't even DENY it you see this happen every fucking day! :D

See, that's society screwing with you.
Everybody loves sex but nobody wants to discuss the issue for some reason.
Imagine if that was the case for eating.
"Wanna go for lunch?"
"Uhh.. I don't eat."

See how stupid it'd be!
It was raining hippos and bunnies just now.
I wished it happened all the time.
Cause if it does, all the stupid aunties would be staying at home
picking their noses while watching some failure local Chinese drama.
*Peacceeeeeee*

I watched some videos on youtube about ugly Singaporeans,
and I WONDER why they complain incessantly about the biased treatment towards the Caucasians.
I can imagine them now, fat, round, bossy, armpit hair, ridiculous makeup, flirting with uncles.
OMG NO that just killed my appetite.
Well I'm going to throw up all over an aunty's house, later!

*CHERYL I DID IT! HAHAHAHA

Putting it down.

2009-08-28T22:07:00.003+08:00

Hay guys.
I know I'm mostly crazy, having fun.
It'd be so cool to stay like that all the time.
I get to stay in my own little world, unbounded.
Unfortunately that's not the case, I'm still a person,
normal or not.

There'll be times when I feel so tired. So tired of trying to
go against the norm, so tired of being insane, that I just wanna
resign to society, and be a goddamn robot.
I just wanna sit my ass down and not move. Cause every inch
of muscle moved brings about a huge wave of fatigue.
These are the times I feel so.. so human.
I've always told myself that crazy people are always happy, cause they don't
give a shit about the status quo, or about anything else.
I wished that I could just tell a dirty joke, and laugh myself better.
But at this moment I'm fucking speechless, cause reality has
slammed hard into me, knocking my breath out.

And then I'm pissed, because this is one big joke.
Everyone's trying to tell each other to cheer up, to stay strong,
but EVERYONE will feel the same sooner or later, there's no running away
no matter how fucking positive you are.
I don't know where I'm goin with this cause obviously, I have lost my mood.
Aww it's just a big joke, let's laugh it off. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
OH WAIT I CANT LAUGH.
FUCK THIS

BRB KTHXBAI

2009-08-27T21:55:00.003+08:00

Blog under construction.
Hmm, I wonder what I should do to it.
Well lately there hasn't been anything good going on to blog about.
I mean, no bloggable controversies. SHEESH!

Plus I wouldn't wanna blog about my day because believe you me, you could
stop reading my posts and not MISS A THING.
It's like summer TV programmes, all fucking reruns! ):
Or isit programs. jeeeezzzz

Oh, there's something bugging me. I dislike people who have an issue against other people with long hair.
Like most typical Singaporeans, namely my MUM.
To be honest, the only reason I can think of is that she dosen't wanna be embarrassed when other equally ridiculous people starts commenting about my hair.

OH SCHOOL, HIGH SCHOOL'S ANOTHER PROBLEM.
My teacher would threaten me with detention if I didn't cut my hair.
AND WHY? Because the goddamn principal dosen't wanna be embarrassed when OTHER EQUALLY
ridiculous high school principals comment about the supposedly tarnished image.

THATS STEREOTYPING. Cause EVERYONE pictures a normal person, AGUY, in particular to have short, neat hair and wearing coporate suits. WHICH IS WHY most parents want their kids to get insanely good grades. We, on one hand, want to score so that we can PURSUE OUR AMBITIONS, not our PARENTS'.
Mum: No son you cannot be a DEEJAY, cause DEEJAYS have no future, be a LAWYER, or a PROFESSOR, or a fucking DOCTOR.
Maybe I could be a doctor and cure your illness cause your ideals are sick!

Back to the point. So if a guy has long hair then it would be "WRONG" cause he isn't fitting the IDEAL image.
I wish people could see that sporting your own hairstyle dosen't make you dumber, or less capable, or less successful.
Teachers especially, I mean, why the fuck do our parents pay school fees for, so that you can teach us to graduate with decent scores, not to whine about our hair.
Personally, if someone has to worry about his hair, he won't be able to study well cause he's fucking FRETTING OVER IT.
I envy the high schools in America, they can wear whatever they want to school.
Compared to them, we're living in cages I swear.

It's sucha shame to see people going with the status quo. We're complaining but we ain't doing anything.
I will. Life's too short to go around pleasing everybody and going with the flow, it's time to fuck
with the norm. Will you take up arms too?

Intriguing

2009-08-26T20:56:00.000+08:00

Hay I'm back with NOTHING ON MY MIND.
This is bad, it's like fucking without a condom,
I'll be shooting all over the place! ):

Honestly, I have no idea what to rant about right now,
so I'll type whatever that comes to my mind.
Take it as a detailed analysis of my big FAT brain!

NOTHING INSIDE.

Still waiting

Dasterdly Science

2009-08-25T23:55:00.000+08:00

HAY GUYS.

You know what I dont get, people who think they rule the class.
They like sucking up to the more popular people and have a zillion
'gans'(I feel bad just having to say that word in chifucknese.

Anyways, back to my point, these people tend to be extremely bossy and
delights in intimidating innocent bystanders. Honestly, I was scared.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
Right let's classify them here since they're not of our species.

Let's see.. homo faggus

Homo Fagguses are generally lazy, they prefer giving their groupmates MORAL SUPPORT,
because they assume they're too popular for such peasant labor such as homework.
Additionally, they feel that it is necessary to remind their groupmates about the deadline
every 2.234524344235678 seconds. Amazing, I don't even know how they're able to say, "HURRY AH DEADLINE COMING LA." in 2.234524344235678 seconds. Pardon the Singlish.

Psychologically, Homo Fagguses are intolerent towards what they deem as lame and childish.
Given, that's discriminating enough.
Sorry, do you have an issue with kids?
Under such circumstances, they won't even retort, they'll just give you their trademark
characteristic, which makes them so distinguishable: the fuckface.

Interest-wise, Homo Fagguses enjoy twit god-family generating games like AuditionSEA.
I'm not saying that the game sucks. Wait, it DOES, but not everyone who plays that are Homo Fagguses. It's just a favourite among the local Homo Faggus population.

My conclusion to this report ends with just two kind words to all Homo Fagguses out there;
Fuck you.

Oh yeah if I ever get flamed for this, you're just the loser here cause you're admitting to being a Homo Faggus, which is VERY SAD.

CIAO<3

Reminisce

2009-08-23T23:26:00.001+08:00

Imagine a world with a perpetual touch of sanguinity.
Imagine gilded clouds that swirl in the vast mauve skies.
Imagine black skyscrapers that reflect the rays of both the sun
and the moon with kindred glass panels.
Imagine the glistering stars, symbolically christening your hopes and dreams.
Imagine yourself looking at them, longing escape the seething reality.
Imagine a world without pain, a world that numbs the weary, like a sluice, it
flushes out your sufferings.
Now imagine that you can fly.
It's a beautiful thing.

It's Over

2009-08-20T09:59:00.000+08:00

Dear Flu,

Listen baby, I've been thinking alot, and I feel that we just aren't right for each other.
But indeed, I've grown stronger since our little stint together, and I appreciate
all the attention and care you gave me.

I will never forget our passionate nights, cause when you were on me, oh boy!
I felt like I was really fucked.

And yes, despite all that, I think it's time we moved on. I mean, while typing this
shit to you, I already dropped my phone 2 times. And it's really spooky that
you're possessive, because when you're with me, I'm not even allowed to visit my friends, it's
like you're grounding me, and I don't like that baby, cause I need my life back.

But you know what, I realised I should let go when I felt that you were becoming my drug, like
I couldn't think straight with you around, and no matter how I tried to shake you off, you stuck onto me like glue, and I think it's about time I got some breathing space. I hope
you won't take it to heart, and I hope you'll come back to visit, whenever I have too much pressure in school, so I can take a couple of days off just to be with you.
And when I go back there, I might just introduce you to the nice lecturers and friends I have.

Love,
FuckenBen

Celebration

2009-08-16T00:32:00.002+08:00

Blogger's working! It's like embracing a long-lost friend.
Today was pretty exhausting. Went gymming with the cool wakeboarders.
Friendly bunch, perfect.

Wouldn't it be awkward if you first stepped into a CCA and then all you get is like,
awkward stares.

But whatever.
I really love the drama in my class.
Honestly, I wish I could list speak my mind about this here but apparently the interwebz has eyes, so yeah.
Can't spell class without ass.

And the fact that I've been feeling abit angsty isnt helping.
My day was good overall though, so it's not too bad.
Oh, speaking of bad, the student help service @ SP sucks like, it's crazy.
Now I'm getting 3 different answers regarding my transfer, so right now I'm hoping
that the transition would be pretty smooth, and that the people at CASS are uber friendly.
I hate mixing with snobs btw.

Exams are coming and I'm planning to study tmr. I'm hoping that for ONCE, that will actually come to pass. -.-

YOU KNOW WHAT, I don't have the mood to blog now cause I have no inspiration and thus brings me to the moral of this post, not like my blog had any morals at all; confuscius he says : A writer with no inspiration is like firefly with no light, but Ben10 without inspiration like bull without shit.

Trust.

2009-08-14T23:18:00.001+08:00

I'm peeved.
At the fact that some people are just that fucking insensitive.
I thought I could trust them enough to confide, but no.

Hence I'm letting my grudges go today, cause I don't even trust them enough to
hate them.
So you're forgiven, I wanna let you know that I'm not mad at all.
But I'm not gonna trust you anymore.

And if some people who are actually not the ones I'm referring to get the wrong idea,
well don't.
I'm just cleaning out my closet. Deal with it.
trust, LOL. Fucking joke.
I'm almost laughing. It's so surreal how 5 letters can bring down a nation.
Cool, we have the power to rule the world. Bow down.

Eat my shit.

Man in the Middle

2009-08-13T22:39:00.001+08:00

Hey guys I know I like posting random crap on my blog.
I still do.
But if I were to write about something more solemn, like
religion or something, I wonder how it'd turn out...

__________________________________________________________

The setting sun was like none other, with its crimson rays
smiling at the crowd. If anyone looked up, they would've seen
the gorgeous evening clouds bowing before the sun. It definitely
looked like a setting for a romantic event, but the shouts of pain
and agony extinguished the atmosphere.

See, three men were about to undergo a period of unspeakable pain
before being allowed the luxury of death. Two were petty thieves,
whom were sentenced to death for their crimes. At the end of their ordeal
though, both of them were acquitted.

Bits and pieces of small talk echoed through the bloody fanfare.
"I heard people call that guy in the middle the Son of Man, they say He is God,
but what the hell is He doing there letting them beat the shit out of Him?"

Whips lashed, skin tore, blood spilled. For the millionth time, the man in the middle cried
in pain. But He was determined to endure the process, however painful it would be.
People like you and I, would yell when we're cut by a small object. When we see blood, we go, "Shit, fuck.". But the man in the middle has blood flowing down his body like a twisted river with His death written all over it.

As I stood amongst the crowd watching peculiarly, I saw how tired He was, a man of 33 years, but with hazel eyes that had seen much more. I saw a villager walking to him, and pressing a cloth of wine onto his dehydrated, broken lips. Then he said, "Forgive them
for they know not what they're doing.", and with that those newly moist lips closed.

For the first time, I was puzzled, that someone could shrug off the most heinous of crimes.
Maybe what He did was for us, for me. All the cries of pain, all the blood and broken skin, and the crown of thorns feeding on His head. I can't comprehend the pain, but He did.
I'm a sinner, I should've shot to hell, I didn't deserve forgiveness, and a new beginning.
I should've been buried in my misdeeds, but I'm alive and well, unshackled by the world.
He was a king, but he came to die. I'll never know how it's like to be born with a death sentence. Imagine yourself at a tender age of 12, and your Dad comes into your room and with a grave tone, tells you that you're going to die for something random assholes did, and their burdens are yours to carry. Now imagine yourself saying yes. you can't, but he did. The man in the middle, I didn't get to see his face, but i saw his heart.

________________________________________________________________

Uhh yeah I tried not to go overboard with religion. comment please!

Rant number...erm..

2009-08-12T22:14:00.000+08:00

Hay I'm back. Feeling much better, yay!
No wait I'm lying I'm not feeling better at all.
sike I'm kidding. Oh fuck did i just lie that I lied?
Another stupid example for an endless cycle of stupidity.
Hence I've just added on to that cycle by citing a stupid example.
I am being judged. More often it seems like. I know I've said that
people's comments don't bother me, but the world wasn't so critical
when I last noticed. I must be living in my own bubble. But it's okay,
living in my bubble keeps me calm.
But some people just had to burst it.
I don't even know what the fuck I'm talking about.

Moving on.
I have a presentation tomorrow on which the lecturer will ask me stupid questions
which are totally business-related. I'm going to punch her. No wait I won't
her saggy skin will just absorb my blows. Bummer. I'll just give her an overdosage of Botox to screw with her face.
Fuck off dude!

Sorry that was my 8 year old cousin fucking with my blog.
Yay, now nobody will ever suspect I made those childish remarks. Oh wait I've posted my dark supercaliexpialidocious secret on my blog. Everyone's going to know that I'm retarded. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO my life is fucked. Oh wait who cares, there's nothing wrong in being a kid. You can't spell life without 'i', and neither can you with kid.
Crap it dosent even make sense at all. Scratch that.

I've decided to minimize gaming time. I really need to expand my social life, not that it's molecularishly small at the moment but, Confuscius he says : Good to meet girl in park, better to park meat in girl!

Omg that totally helped cheer me up. I find it funny, and if you don't, well you can kiss my ass and maybe suck on my balls a lil. Faggots! Nah I'm just kidding, only I suck my own balls. NOOO wait I should rephrase that. Sorry I have a tendency to get really random with my posts, this is just one of the many examples. To all my friends I'm just sorry you have to endure my fits of what seems like normal to me but absolutely annoying to you. BUT I DONT CARE DEAL WITH IT HAHAHAHAHA.

I hope that I'll be able to build up my self-confidence even more. Contradicting isnt it, how I cant care less about people's opinions about me but I freak out sometimes when I have to present, especially when I have no idea what to say. Impromptu fail!
HEAR THAT SANTA, THAT WAS A FUCKING HINT! STOP GROWING YOUR FUCKEN BELLY OR YOU WONT BE ABLE TO FIT THROUGH MY FRONT DOORRRRRRRRRRRRRRR! Naw I'm kidding again, wait I'm always kidding even this blog itself's a joke. IM A JOKE. ):
SEE, my self-confidence is in an all time low. SIKE, fuck it i'm not afraid. *Some random orchestratic music playing*
Cause every burst of courage comes with a boner!
YOU KNOW WHY, cause if you[guys obviously] can even get a boner you shldnt feel confident.

Slut : Bob, are you homosexual, you don't seem turned on by my huge tits.
Bob : Uh, cause you have a penis.

HAHAHAH CLASSIC.
No it's not I made that joke up.
NO DONT FLAME ME EVERYBODY I'm just trying to fit in! ):
How do I make people accept me into their little cliques? ):
BRAINBLAST! I'm gonna throw a party! With like, dictionaries, and my mum, and everyone's mums as well. We're gonna drink alphabet soup and memorize words all night long!
OH GOD IM JIZZING AT THE THOUGHT OF THAT!

No sorry I can't be fucked to make everyone like me.
Cause I don't friendwhore.

OMG THANX 4 THE ADD INTRO PLEASE!
erm.. footlong.

Yeah, I'm tired.
I guess life isnt made for me. I'm going to commit suicide tonight. so yeah..
SIKE AGAIN. Asshole, you were all ready to cheer right?! I KNEW IT! D:
HAHAH kidding. But I'm not joking about the tired part. All this incoherent ranting is HARD WORK!
CIAO!

Apology

2009-08-12T16:03:00.000+08:00

Hay CRS team!

Well, I just wanted to apologise for my unusually poor performance.
Been having a bad day and I can't stay in my own head as a result.
Not that it's an excuse or anything, but yeah, i owe you guys one.
So if anyone from my CRS team sees this, I'm sorry. To the rest, fuck off!
ha kidding.

Ben

So anyway, screwed up one of the songs during worship and screwed my part for CRS.
At least I'm reminded of the things that I have to work on, so I'll figure it out.
Fucking lousy day nevertheless, i think i'll watch some porn for stress-relief.
tata!
Even if i said i was kidding about watching porn, how many will believe huh. assholes, im holy! HAHAHAHA.

Tough

2009-08-11T13:22:00.002+08:00

Hay guys!
I have no idea why blogger's working perfect here in school
but not at home. sigh, totally takes my mood off ranting.

Nothing much these days either.
I can't wait for the trip to Batam with the Wakeboarders, even
though I've yet to know them better. haha

What the world needs is more dumb flamers.
Sometimes it's hilarious to see how they lose their cool and start talking shit.
Hmm.. defensive motherfuckers. :D

I can't wait for exams to end, cause I'll be starting work.
Isn't it weird, money ALWAYS run out even though you don't seem to be spending alot.
fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk)))):

Pardon the short paragraphs, I'm half stoning right now which is to say, I'm too lazy to blog!
So yeah, toodles!

Pressure mounting.

2009-08-06T14:11:00.002+08:00

Finally, my color has returned.
Font color that is.

I realise I haven't started studying for exams in like 2 weeks.
Time to pull up my socks incredibly high, and while I'm at that
I could pull up my shorts as well.

Thank God I'll most probably go to DMC next sem, cause
DIT has Math next sem, and that's like.. Chinese class.

Life isn't all about money, porn, or girls.
Well it is, but there's something more valuable that I hold on to,
right in the very depths of my heart.

more money.
sike.

Study time! D:

True Love

2009-08-05T20:49:00.000+08:00

Some girls these days just aren't worth your time and money. All
they do is bitch and groan about almost everything in life.
After the agony, they dump you. That's just awesome.
"Ben, do you trust all girls?"
"Why of course!"
I lied. I don't.
But call me glutton for punishment, i LOVE girls.
Hot ones that is.

Changes

2009-07-28T21:52:00.002+08:00

Hey guys. idk if blogger's being a fucking bitch to y'all
but it has been giving me some minor problems. Like I cant change my font
and its color. Oh well.

Anyway, I realise I've been too ~~busy~~lazy to blog,
and the minor problems in blogger's getting really unappealing.
I guess it's slightly better cause it was like a hundred times worse than
it is now.

Hasn't been many updates, so I hope I'm able to magically lengthen my post
with heaps of bullshit.

Firstly, I've given up on IT already so I've decided not to pay attention in class anymore.
Not like it was any different back then. I guess I should just read enough to pass.
Secretly[okay not really secret], I'm looking forward to masscomm.
I know some people are like, "Dude can you make it, what if masscomm isnt what you had in mind again?"
Honestly, I don't know myself. But live for the moment right? teehee! Anything's better than IT right now.
I guess it was a dumbass mistake on my part but whatever. =O

Secondly, everyone around me seems to be having problems, notably in the love department.
Some are caught in dilemmas, while others are moping over their loss.
Man, I'm just glad I'm numb to this shit.
And NO not the emofuck numb. hahahah, it's more like the i.dont.give.a.shit type.
Quite useful though.
I'm not afraid to admit, i was very poor at handling breakups.
Until I smartened up to the fact that love is superficial until you're looking for a wife.
Cause nowadays, some girls really know who to do a number on you: Suck you dry, make you cry.
See the order? hahahah no offence to most of the girls I know who're super nice.

OH AND NO OTHER THOUGHTS ABOUT 'SUCK YOU DRY', MOTHERFUCKERS! teeeheeee :D
I meant in terms on money, but then again if some guys know what 'cash' is then LETS MOVE ONNNNNNN

Lastly, I wanna reinforce the fact that although I'm a Christian, I HATE people coming to me and preaching stuff to me.
I'll read the Bible whenever I feel like it, I dont need you to tell me what to do.
And yes, this is to any religious Christian extremists.
No offence, but I'm really ashamed, to be part of your circle, unwittingly that is, when my friends start saying that they
hate Christianity cause you guys pressure them into going to church. That's fucking ridiculous, I know you wanna save lives and all,
but understand that people won't go unless you're really nice to them. AND YOU CANT FORCE THEM.
Secondly, to everyone who thinks I'm unholy and stuff.
Yes Sara if you're reading this I'm specially bringing this up to remind you once again.

Yes I confess, I'm explicit, I swear, I drink, and I don't give a fuck. My friends all know that I'm insane.
But so what? If you think that just because I'm controversial and different, so therefore I'm unholy? Then you're sadly
mistaken. I don't wanna lecture about my religion but just know that I'm more devoted to God than you guys think.
Sara says that because of that, I'm drifting from God. I LOLED. Sara, you do realise that, it's like saying,
if you see me eating curry, it means that I must be a fatass motherfucker who dosent workout and who fucking frequents an Indian
eatery. Retarded analogy, but dig this;
You know that I eat curry, and that curry is unhealthy, but do you know what I do to get rid of the fats, or what else I eat?
For example, I like eating vegs and fruits as well. I like sports, so basically I do workout. Thus I'm actually not fat, and that I lead a healthy lifestyle.

Back to your accusation, you say that just because I'm explicit, it means that I'm drifting away from God.
But do you know that I pray to him every morning before I go to bed? Do you know that I read the Bible, that I
rely on Him for everything? Do you know the other bits and pieces of my life as well? No, so how can you just accuse me without
understanding me as a person. Putting it very bluntly, don't fucking judge me unless you really know me well.
But I'm not forbidding people from judging at all, that would take the fun outta controversies, what I'm saying is that, in your mind, before you start assuming, please ask yourself if you know me well enough to think of me as the person you claim I am.
There're so many things that I keep to myself as well.
Nobody knows what I do at home, other than porn. HAHA
Nobody knows that I read alot, and so many other stuffs.
And no I'm not trying to form some mystical image of myself like WHOA MYSTERIOUS.
But I'm basically someone who keeps alot of things to myself, things which I feel are none
of anybody's business.

But you can always probe and ask. I won't lie.