Changes
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
9:52 PM
Hey guys. idk if blogger's being a fucking bitch to y'all
but it has been giving me some minor problems. Like I cant change my font
and its color. Oh well.
Anyway, I realise I've been too
busylazy to blog,
and the minor problems in blogger's getting really unappealing.
I guess it's slightly better cause it was like a hundred times worse than
it is now.
Hasn't been many updates, so I hope I'm able to magically lengthen my post
with heaps of bullshit.
Firstly, I've given up on IT already so I've decided not to pay attention in class anymore.
Not like it was any different back then. I guess I should just read enough to pass.
Secretly[okay not really secret], I'm looking forward to masscomm.
I know some people are like, "Dude can you make it, what if masscomm isnt what you had in mind again?"
Honestly, I don't know myself. But live for the moment right? teehee! Anything's better than IT right now.
I guess it was a dumbass mistake on my part but whatever. =O
Secondly, everyone around me seems to be having problems, notably in the love department.
Some are caught in dilemmas, while others are moping over their loss.
Man, I'm just glad I'm numb to this shit.
And NO not the emofuck numb. hahahah, it's more like the i.dont.give.a.shit type.
Quite useful though.
I'm not afraid to admit, i was very poor at handling breakups.
Until I smartened up to the fact that love is superficial until you're looking for a wife.
Cause nowadays, some girls really know who to do a number on you: Suck you dry, make you cry.
See the order? hahahah no offence to most of the girls I know who're super nice.
OH AND NO OTHER THOUGHTS ABOUT 'SUCK YOU DRY', MOTHERFUCKERS! teeeheeee :D
I meant in terms on money, but then again if some guys know what 'cash' is then LETS MOVE ONNNNNNN
Lastly, I wanna reinforce the fact that although I'm a Christian, I HATE people coming to me and preaching stuff to me.
I'll read the Bible whenever I feel like it, I dont need you to tell me what to do.
And yes, this is to any religious Christian extremists.
No offence, but I'm really ashamed, to be part of your circle, unwittingly that is, when my friends start saying that they
hate Christianity cause you guys pressure them into going to church. That's fucking ridiculous, I know you wanna save lives and all,
but understand that people won't go unless you're really nice to them. AND YOU CANT FORCE THEM.
Secondly, to everyone who thinks I'm unholy and stuff.
Yes Sara if you're reading this I'm specially bringing this up to remind you once again.
Yes I confess, I'm explicit, I swear, I drink, and I don't give a fuck. My friends all know that I'm insane.
But so what? If you think that just because I'm controversial and different, so therefore I'm unholy? Then you're sadly
mistaken. I don't wanna lecture about my religion but just know that I'm more devoted to God than you guys think.
Sara says that because of that, I'm drifting from God. I LOLED. Sara, you do realise that, it's like saying,
if you see me eating curry, it means that I must be a fatass motherfucker who dosent workout and who fucking frequents an Indian
eatery. Retarded analogy, but dig this;
You know that I eat curry, and that curry is unhealthy, but do you know what I do to get rid of the fats, or what else I eat?
For example, I like eating vegs and fruits as well. I like sports, so basically I do workout. Thus I'm actually not fat, and that I lead a healthy lifestyle.
Back to your accusation, you say that just because I'm explicit, it means that I'm drifting away from God.
But do you know that I pray to him every morning before I go to bed? Do you know that I read the Bible, that I
rely on Him for everything? Do you know the other bits and pieces of my life as well? No, so how can you just accuse me without
understanding me as a person. Putting it very bluntly, don't fucking judge me unless you really know me well.
But I'm not forbidding people from judging at all, that would take the fun outta controversies, what I'm saying is that, in your mind, before you start assuming, please ask yourself if you know me well enough to think of me as the person you claim I am.
There're so many things that I keep to myself as well.
Nobody knows what I do at home, other than porn. HAHA
Nobody knows that I read alot, and so many other stuffs.
And no I'm not trying to form some mystical image of myself like WHOA MYSTERIOUS.
But I'm basically someone who keeps alot of things to myself, things which I feel are none
of anybody's business.
But you can always probe and ask. I won't lie.
Oh NOEEEEEES
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
10:56 PM
wtf, my control panel is seriously fucked. brb kthxbai
Oh noes!
Saturday, July 18, 2009
12:02 AM
Hey guys sorry for the late update. Been really well.. LAZY.
Watched Harry Potter today.
The show was quite nice, especially the making out scenes aye!
Emma Watson was as hot as ever.
*pssst, I had a crush on her back in p6. oooooh scandalous. fuck you :D
And I'm throwing this out to you guys. If you're ever in need of some insane fun on the train,
travel with Kian Hwee and I. It's a BIG JOKE!
But I really enjoyed myself ttm, being myself and all.
Lastly, I've come to realise that, maybe IT isnt the right course for me, I'll see if I can still transfer to MassComm.
I hope I'm not too late. ):
Enough, is fucking enough.
Monday, July 13, 2009
10:44 PM
Parents, especially MY MOM, can be summarized with one word: annoying.
Originally, I wanted to use fucked, but Mom said I can't be vulgar, so I'm fucking sorry, mom.
If I wanted to, I could write an entire essay on why I hate my mother, but I'll just go with this.
My Mom, is a face-saving person, she'll only admit that she's in the wrong when is outright obvious. Otherwise, she'll say things like, "Stop putting words into my mouth." or "Stop twisting my words.", when everyone fucking knows what you mean.
It's really bad, like a couple of minutes ago, my mom was ranting about how GTA is too disturbing a game to be played. You[if you're not my fucking mom] and I know that isn't true.
I told her that I had a game like that when I bought Vice City for my PSP, and she didn't say anything. So she's giving me the wrong signal, that she dosen't mind right? Then i bought GTASA and she totally flipped out. When I told her about Vice City she was like, did I, stop putting words into my mouth. what.the.fuck.
And yes, I don't love my mum, and yes I won't shed a fucking tear at her funeral.
I'm only grateful for her sacrifices, but time and again, she has proven unfit to be my mother,
and I'm probably unfit to be her son, but it takes two hands to clap.
So mum, if you're reading this[highly unlikely], I just wanna let you know that your son is dead. Sure, in blood, we're mother and son, but I've cut you off from my heart. There isn't any room for someone who overuses her authority and plays the innocent.
I can't wait to go abroad or move out so I'll never have to see your face again.
But funnily enough, I don't feel anger, just sheer happiness, that the realization of what you are broke my shackles, and I'm no longer chained to your will. I'm fucking free and will enjoy every second of it.
You keep saying that you're worried that God will punish me, but He's just, and He won't punish the wronged. I'll always be the fucking bad son in your eyes, but I really can't be bothered to change your mind, cause stiff people like you aren't worth my feelings and time.
So goodbye mummy, I'm going on a journey called life, MY LIFE, not YOURS, so PAWS OFF!
This or That
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
2:08 AM
Hey world!
Recently, I've been asking some of my friends,
if they would mind being different from the rest.
Guess I'm the only weird motherfucker here!
But I really like this kinda life.
And face it everyone's an attention whore in their own right,
nothing wrong with seeking attention, lest you were born to keep a low profile,
which I probably will never get used to.
Funny enough, I was really image conscious a few years back.
Still shaking off the bits and pieces but I'm doing fine baby.
My biggest inspiration for living life my way and not the world's came from
Avenged Sevenfold.
I know some skeptics will be like, "Oh you know, you shldn't really take bands seriously,
cause they may be musically inclined but morally, not at all."
Then I realised, what was their defination for "lack of morals" and the like.
Cause really, aren't all definations nowadays set by society, and since A7X isnt like them so
that technically puts them on a whole new level.
Sad part is, A7X gets flamed for drinking, fucking and being wild.
Right after saying that I know most of you people would be like, no wonder
they're morally challenged.
And then the penny drops,
cause there's nothing wrong with drinking, fucking and being wild.
Seriously, is there? I mean, i think scoiety is just a bunch of hypocrites,
if there ever was a fitting defination of society, it would be this, its really simple,
just one word: posers.
I DO feel sorry for people binded in these invisible chains, stopping them from being themselves.
go figure.
70th
Sunday, July 5, 2009
12:57 AM
Hey guize!
I just realized that my 69th post was filled with erm, rare emotions.
So unfitting for its implication if you know what i mean.
SIXTYFUCKINGNINE!
Anyway, methinks I need to find something productive to do.
I mean, I don't wanna sit my ass in front of the com all day long.
But I'm broke, and I pretty much can't go anywhere so often.
I'll probably need a weekend job, and a gym partner.
If you wanna work out with me[not necessarily weights], text me
or leave a tag aye? :D
*you must not mind my fat body!
I don't really know what to rant about. It has been VERY boring so far.
Nothing juicy coming up either so, I guess I'll have lots of time looking for stuff to do.
Oh yeah I came across Genius' blog. She rated it R21 but seeing as she dosen't swear, or actually blog about anything dirty[foreal! At least none that I know of], I don't see how it should be R21. I mean, it's good though. I hate people who swears alot. Well now you know I'm not narccissistic! kidding! Well duh I like myself, but not to the point of self-obsession.
And, about school, I screwed up some tests. I definitely have to start studying a lil.
Been stoning in class over the past two months. Ouch.
Then again, everyone is.
I'm still hoping that I've made the right choice being in IT. Somehow I felt like taking MassComm. I mean, I love talking, or even ranting, in public.
You should know by now that I'm weirdly insane, but that's the way I like it. You won't see me stifling my gigglefits or attempting to act normal outside. Ask around! Freaks some people out I swear. :O
A friend of mine's involved in some police case cause apparently, some kids in MapleStory started shit with her, so she's fucking them up.
Personally, I feel that most Singaporean gamers are bad losers, and they really can't make the mark in terms of nice-ness. And I wonder why Singaporeans complain that they're treated badly in shops as compared to caucasians.[AND NO ANGMOH. It's a disgusting word to represent caucasians]
Anyway, moving on, some dude on my tagboard said that in my world, everyone is wrong while I'm right. LOL
that fucking made my day.
I can't care enough to write like an essay flaming you but srsly,
baseless accusations are really meant to be kept private, cause my friends, and other people as well[?] know that it isn't true, so basically you're making a dumbass outta yourself.
But I really like flame posts, gets like tons of traffic for me!
Okay it's 120 and I really need to get some...
porn.
Catch you later homedogs :D
Rant.. or not.
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
1:04 AM
Hay guys,
I'm gonna try to rant as much as I can.
I dont know, I might end up trash talking, so bear with me..
if anyone's reading I guess.
Who am I kidding, it's so fucking hard to find someone to talk to.
And it's not about everyday issues, some 'deeper' issues require a really
good listener. Honestly, much as I wish I could, I can't really SHUT off my emotions.
Guess they were created for a reason.
I'm gonna tell you more about me. or not! =)
For some reason I feel melancholic. Like a fucking lost sheep,
away from all the green grass.
I guess it'll go away soon. I swear, it's one pest of an emotion. yech!
I think heart-to-heart talks has this effect on me. It's not everyday when I can like,
pour my emotions to someone. He[usually she ;]] has to be someone I really trust,
who thinks and feels like me, basically someone I can relate to. You have no idea how rare it is now. Everyone's too busy with themselves to do things for you anymore. Everyone's trying to win the rat race, but guess what, even if you win, you're still a rat. Not much of a listener huh, people like those.
I've been observing people in the train nowadays, to see if they're all robots. They are, and always will be. I felt frozen in time, cause nothing was moving, apart from the occasional face-twitching. Clearly, I don't belong here, being the crazy ass I am.
Personally, I've never felt at home in Singapore. My parents are loyal citizens, and are always trying to talk me out of hating you know, my country.
I think parents should really start to realise that, their kids won't think in tandem with them. I have a brain you know, I know best what's right for me and what's not.
And I know it sounds reckless, but somehow I love living for the moment. I mean, that's what happens if you're asked to live everyday as if it was the last. What happens if you're here one moment and gone the next. Wouldn't it be a shame to look down from heaven fretting cause of something you should've done but didn't?
Of course, it's a shitty justification and you should'nt really do that.
What's wrong with justifying yourself?
Some people don't like it for, idk wtf for actually.
I was talking to moonpig earlier, and I really dislike control freaks.
Some girls get jealous way too easily.
One of my ex was jealous cause I texted my female friend during one of our dates.
GET OVER IT, it's not I'm telling her that I fucking love her or something.
Sheesh. Okay I wasnt mad.
On the other hand, I feel like I'm being played out.
Not that it hurts me, it just bugs me what I can't really understand some girls' minds,
they're complex as hell I swear.
You know the kind, who smiles sweetly at you, and you realize upon closer inspection, it was the Fuck You smile.
Or not cause if she was complex you wouldn't even know that.
On a lighter note, went for a show with moonpig. It's fun hanging out with her, really fun person (:
We watched Ghosts of Girlfriend's Past btw.
I never believed that relationships now would last.
I've learnt how to numb myself in case of a breakup, happens all the time.
But it works, I feel great after that.
Never ever give sluts the satisfaction, that they've hurt you.
Oh and I wanna stress, I'm not being emo! I am vehemently against emoshits.
I'm gonna stop here. It has been awhile since I stopped to take a good look at what I've done.
God.