вэииу вĿαѕρнэму

вэииу вĿαѕρнэму

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I LOVE:
Nature and Travelling
God
Good music
Good books
Random things and awesome friends.

INFLUENCES:
Zacky Vengeance
Obviously, God
Destery Moore
Nathan Owens
Chris Dakota
Sam Llansing
Luke Nugent
Audrey Kitching
Meghan Camarena
Shane Dawson
Elijah S. Arms

HEROES:
God
Myu
Cheryl
Daniel
Daryl
Rachel
Jollin
Denise

TRAITS:
Random
Incoherent
I don't smoke
I like good alcohol.

ABOUT ME:
Hello, I'm Benjamin, but other names with a remote resemblance will do. I like traveling and appreciating nature,
because the world has too little of it left. I really wanna seek that inner peace in my heart wherever I am, whatever I'm doing.

I try my best to accept everyone as they are.

Rant.. or not.

Wednesday, July 1, 2009
1:04 AM

Hay guys,
I'm gonna try to rant as much as I can.
I dont know, I might end up trash talking, so bear with me..
if anyone's reading I guess.

Who am I kidding, it's so fucking hard to find someone to talk to.
And it's not about everyday issues, some 'deeper' issues require a really
good listener. Honestly, much as I wish I could, I can't really SHUT off my emotions.
Guess they were created for a reason.

I'm gonna tell you more about me. or not! =)
For some reason I feel melancholic. Like a fucking lost sheep,
away from all the green grass.
I guess it'll go away soon. I swear, it's one pest of an emotion. yech!

I think heart-to-heart talks has this effect on me. It's not everyday when I can like,
pour my emotions to someone. He[usually she ;]] has to be someone I really trust,
who thinks and feels like me, basically someone I can relate to. You have no idea how rare it is now. Everyone's too busy with themselves to do things for you anymore. Everyone's trying to win the rat race, but guess what, even if you win, you're still a rat. Not much of a listener huh, people like those.

I've been observing people in the train nowadays, to see if they're all robots. They are, and always will be. I felt frozen in time, cause nothing was moving, apart from the occasional face-twitching. Clearly, I don't belong here, being the crazy ass I am.
Personally, I've never felt at home in Singapore. My parents are loyal citizens, and are always trying to talk me out of hating you know, my country.
I think parents should really start to realise that, their kids won't think in tandem with them. I have a brain you know, I know best what's right for me and what's not.
And I know it sounds reckless, but somehow I love living for the moment. I mean, that's what happens if you're asked to live everyday as if it was the last. What happens if you're here one moment and gone the next. Wouldn't it be a shame to look down from heaven fretting cause of something you should've done but didn't?
Of course, it's a shitty justification and you should'nt really do that.
What's wrong with justifying yourself?
Some people don't like it for, idk wtf for actually.

I was talking to moonpig earlier, and I really dislike control freaks.
Some girls get jealous way too easily.
One of my ex was jealous cause I texted my female friend during one of our dates.
GET OVER IT, it's not I'm telling her that I fucking love her or something.
Sheesh. Okay I wasnt mad.

On the other hand, I feel like I'm being played out.
Not that it hurts me, it just bugs me what I can't really understand some girls' minds,
they're complex as hell I swear.
You know the kind, who smiles sweetly at you, and you realize upon closer inspection, it was the Fuck You smile.
Or not cause if she was complex you wouldn't even know that.

On a lighter note, went for a show with moonpig. It's fun hanging out with her, really fun person (:

We watched Ghosts of Girlfriend's Past btw.

I never believed that relationships now would last.
I've learnt how to numb myself in case of a breakup, happens all the time.
But it works, I feel great after that.
Never ever give sluts the satisfaction, that they've hurt you.
Oh and I wanna stress, I'm not being emo! I am vehemently against emoshits.
I'm gonna stop here. It has been awhile since I stopped to take a good look at what I've done.
God.