Aftermath
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
11:57 AM
I'm crushed, but the mere fact that I can't join DMC til next year.
All this time, my lecturers, people at SAC have been giving me hope,
that I'll be able to make a transfer next sem.
So now I hafta come to terms with it and mug for modules I DONT ENJOY.
I wonder what kinda disaster will I be spared from with the delayed transfer,
like, is CASS gonna BURN to the ground or something? Is that it?
I hope next sem's gonna be alright. Looks like I've trusted the wrong system.
Like a stupid child, I've walked right into a trap that never ceased to close in on me.
But I guess it's mostly my fault cause I fucked up and made one of the worst choices
I could ever make.
Half of me feels that it isnt that bad cause I got to make some cool friends.
The other half just wants to tear myself apart. Day in day out, all I'm hearing is words I can't comprehend, instructions I can't follow, no matter how fucking hard I try.
Now it's stuck like an obsessed spouse; I wanna break free, tell her to get the hell away, but I
can't, she just won't let go of me.
Fucking bummed,
these days ain't so happy anymore.
God help me
