Let us see..
Thursday, January 28, 2010
10:18 PM
I have a million things to do now.
Webpages, JavaShit, talking to friends,
and studying for shitload of papers that
i'll never look at again.
I wanna drop out.
Either that or.. ill post in a few.
Gonna revamp my blog soon.
Thank you Alfie.
Check his blog @ www.akulahalfi.com
Til then, never sway, never fall.
I love you guys.
You can't spell fall without 'all'
Monday, January 25, 2010
10:15 PM
As we march to our graves,
we leave footsteps on the dirt that we tread on.
If you leave a print deep enough, it just might
just overcome the test of time.
So we shake off the tears from our eyes,
and mend the holes on our boots,
we grit our teeth and continue down
the road of infinite paths.
We'll separate and forge ahead.
Some fall and never get up,
while some lose their way and their minds.
But as far as the darkness ensues,
walk straight and never sway,
and we'll meet again when our paths become one,
for the final time.
No, I don't want to play your stupid game.
Saturday, January 23, 2010
11:24 PM
When the sun is shining brightly,
people come and go.
They flock the streets, and all is well,
Then comes nightfall, and the city sleeps.
Gilded lights come to life, and the moon lends its might.
Countless stars empower your dreams,
and they play in your head like vivid memories.
But when the dreams conclude and the moon dies,
morning comes once more.
Like Santa Claus, it carries a sack of goodies,
for people of all shapes and sizes.
Some people bask in them,
and others count down the days to hell.
I wonder what Santa will bring me tomorrow.
I'm gonna get the milk and cookies.
One day, they'll hunt you down and kill you.
Friday, January 22, 2010
8:57 PM
Katie M.
Why are guys so tacky?
Why do they always say the things they don't mean.
Leave the corny lines where they belong, back
into TV shows.
"I will wait for you, no matter what?"
"I'll hold you tight and not let go?"
I'm sorry, they put off girls any day.
Don't call your girlfriends your wives,
don't promise to last forever.
You can't spell forever without REV.[A7X]
He died anyway.
I should I know, I've made that mistake,
but now I can see.
Closing my eyes, I turn my back on them.
As I walk though the city gates I see the world outside,
and that's when I realise how unworthy they were.
Masks Unveiled
Thursday, January 21, 2010
10:02 PM
Hay guys.
Where will you go, when the party ends,
when the clock stops ticking and the music fades.
What will you do, when the dinner's over,
when the guests stop talking and the silence deafens you.
Who will you run to, when they pull off their masks,
when their faces of steel stare hard at you.
How will you hide, when they come at you hard,
with coaxing words from tongues of filth.
You've got no one to turn to, nowhere to run.
You stare at the mirror but the very sight irks you.
You see the deep marks from those heavy marks.
You try to smile but you look like a freak.
You try to frown but the marks protest.
Filled with resentment, you punch the mirror,
breaking it into snow-like pieces,
Your skin tears and the blood runs out like prisoners released.
Now the mirror's broken, and all that remains are the four whitewashed walls
staring peculiarly back at you, wondering why you're even here.
Maybe it's time to put those masks away.
And perhaps, if you were to look closer,
at the guests, you'd have found that beneath the
layers of masks, they wore the same face.
And that face belonged to you.
They were the different people you tried to be.
This world we live.
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
9:48 PM
Hay guys.
The degeneration has begun.
The world is tearing itself apart.
People dying left and right. Everytime you take a breath,
a million others take their last.
Sometimes people die for a reason; from the actions they took,
or to prove a point to someone watching.
Watching all these happen made me skeptical about cementing my place on Earth.
Life's like a grotesque lucky draw. Every second, hundreds get chosen to prove points
or to answer for their misdeeds.
When Mother Nature yawns, a country falls. Nothing is safe from anything anymore.
When innocent people die, just to get messages across to us, doesn't that make us beasts.
Because of our actions, prodigies, beggars, they all die. Death doesn't discriminate. Everything's
leveled. If life's so uncertain and we know not when our time's up. Then why, why
the fuck are we still aimlessly roaming around watching the seconds tick away. Why're
we cooped up in the comfort of home, unwilling to relentlessly pursue the reason of our being? Why can't we put to rest the things that wont follow us when the good lord calls.
Why do we subject ourselves to a rigid structure of living where money follows
only the university graduates?
At the end of the day, when the sun sets and it's time to turn to dust, our material possessions will desert us and fade into the darkness. We may have survived the harsh world, we may have become successful, but if that isn't what you're called to do, haven't you already missed
the entire reason of your existence? Righteous as people may be, they're nothing but
victims of the rat race. Everyone wants to get to the top, everyone wants to lead the pack,
but when Mother Nature yawns, everyone falls.
Comparison
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
11:44 PM
Hay guys!
Just a quickie here! Yes, I know I have been lazy, but
I need a break sometimes. Besides, I feel like I'm talking
to the wall.
I think I'mma hypocrite. You know how I always urge people
to be themselves. Sometimes I find that pretty hard to do too.
One way or another, we're tied down by society. My straps are
almost torn, and I'm struggling with the last bit. My biggest
battlefield is my mind, and for every step I take, I pray that I
won't meet a deadlock.
And for anyone else feeling the same way I did, I hope you
know that you're not alone. I'll be here to finish the race with you.
Corny sentences are often the most apt, which is why they're so
overused.
I was blind to reality but now I see,
the shadow of the world that enslaved me.
I watched as the misunderstood set me free.
Far too long has their lips stayed shut,
exiled from society they went in shame.
Now tell me why we conformed to a single mould,
only to descend deeper beyond redemption.
CIAO<3
stay strong.
Home
Saturday, January 16, 2010
12:33 AM
Hay guys!
This is gonna be a PSA.
aka, Public Service Announcement.
And it's for people who're feeling shitty and inferior right now.
I hope this helps.
To be honest, I feel that all the time. I feel that I'll never hold a candle
to some people. And it sucks, it really does, I can relate. It tears and claws
its way out of your soul.
We're like little chicks. As we watch the eagles fly, we look to our sides
and see stumps. And while they grow to dominate, we grow to die and be
eaten. All for the 'greater good'. That isnt very pleasant to think about.
It removes the fine thread you've been standing dangerously on and you fall
hard on your back. Nothing like a cruel way to remind you of the real world.
The eagles sneer. Get over it, some people are meant to rule, while the others feed on our
leftovers.
But while they fight for control, we have fun playing, running around, not giving a shit about
domination. At the end of the day, when the sun sets and heaven beckons, we may be killed
and eaten, but we had fun while it lasted. When the eagles die, they die uncontented, because
they didn't pursue the littler, better things in life: peacefulness, happiness and the lot.
So, if you're a fat, stumpy chick like me, look up high yonder the clouds and be thankful,
be thankful that you're not caught up in the tangle above. But look forward to the place much higher
up. When we stop playing and it's time to go home, know that we lived our heavens on earth.
CIAO<3
Amanda's SPOT GEE!
Thursday, January 14, 2010
10:35 PM
Hay guys!
A thousand apologies for not posting lately.
And everyone's getting too lazy to tag ):
Just kidding.... ha?
Anyways, today, Amanda, or A(whatever it takes to forgive a lazy bum huh)
told me about this guy who flashed his penis at her.
And I was like, just wow. I'd never thought shit like that would
ever happen to a friend of mine, and on my birthday too.
But that's beside the point. Today's topic is about crazy hookup methods.
Sometimes I watch Asian dramas and there'll always be this one desperate
guy trying incessantly to woo the girl of his dreams but ended up failing badly.
So instead of letting go he went fuckin nuts and like, kidnapped her or something.
And Singaporean guys.. God, you have no idea. Apparently, this guy thought it'd be
cool to mix Asian dramas and porno together. So one cool day, he went like, "Okay, you know
what, I like A. But instead of doing something romantic, I'mma try to turn her on. And
OH EM GEE I think today's her friend's birthday, I can ruin his day too." So he gleefully
wanked in front of A.
Now I want to ask this guy a question. Do you think anyone would be turned on by your 2 inch
pinky dick? I can imagine you bragging to your friends like, "Hey guys, listen listen, my cock is
so fuckin huge, that when I lay it out on the keyboard, it stretches from A to ZEEEE!"
Like, cmon, know your limits. Like a rollercoaster, your pinky dick must be THIS LONG to ride.
Got no dick, don't get the chick, nuff said.
Okay, I'm sorry for swearing but it seemed pretty appropriate to me. Never like guys who're so immature. And don't get me wrong. There're two kinds of immaturity: one to keep you childlike, which
is fab, and the other to piss people off, which is obviously twisted and just wrong.
so AMANDA, you owe me a story now! teehee! <3
Keeping Track
Sunday, January 10, 2010
10:31 PM
Hay guys!
Sorry, I haven't posted in a few. Been busy. *cough*really*cough* busy.
Anyway, it's because I'm tinkering with my new phone :DDDDD.
Possibly the best gift ever! Thanks Mom and Dad.
I know I fly off the handle sometimes and rant about them, but
really, without them I wouldn't be here, ranting about them. How paradoxical. :P
I'm kidding. My parents are on the whole, great.
And I think the world has reached a point where there're very few non-political
issues to deal with. Even STOMP's not helping. It's always the usual:
Catching people making out. I swear, that's all they ever do. It's not like the perverts
get any positive recognition at all. In the end, everyone's gonna flame them anyway,
so if you're one of those nice people, keep your conservative comments to yourself.
Then again, conservative people shldnt even be reading my blog, you should be putting
on layers of clothing so that you wont even reveal one strand of hair, sounds cool right?
One more thing, I cannot stress enough how much I hate waking up at 6 to go to school.
I never shoulda picked the 8am class. Fuck ):
Oh yes, have an awesome week ahead
CIAO<3
Wanna hear something cool?
Thursday, January 7, 2010
8:19 PM
Hay guys!
I just wanna share something short with y'all.
If you didn't already know, I don't like thinking too long before
writing something. Like, when you start planning and stuff,
the things you write will be more predictable, and you'll eventually get
bored of writing, hence, the ending's gonna be really rushed.
So yeah, I don't spend too much time trying to plan my story out.
Today was really fun, I met a friend of mine for the first time, and we had fun...
DOING CIP, not what you're thinking, I know >)
And tomorrow, I'll be visiting my doctor to check on my wound. teehee!
Oh yes, back to issues. Don't you find it annoying when people tell you to go
"live in your own little world"? That's a stupid thing to say, and it's not even
an insult, because all my imagination goes into that world, and it's probably
better than their boring lives. At least my little world has beautiful oceans and
perfect skies. At least my little world has happiness and serenity; way cooler
than your AuditionSEA-ridden, bootlicking life. How do people even get about
sucking up to everyone, it's disgusting. D:
Kay, I've ran outta topics, ttyl!
CIAO<3
Debunking Darwin
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
4:48 PM
Hay guys!
I apologise for not updating in 2 days, because I have to go to bed at 11,
and being a good boy, i really did :D
Anyways, today, I wanna talk about something a tad personal.
It is about the need for a significant other.
Wow, I dont know where to start, but I wanna confess to you guys that
I need a girlfriend. And no I'm not desperate, but having a girlfriend is really important to me.
A normal person is built in a way that he or she can't function alone. A person's like a house,
liable to collapse without the proper support, and having a significant other provides that support
that we need. And it's not always about money, but rather, support as in emotional support and stuff.
Wouldn't it be awesome to have someone by your side whenever you're feeling down? That person is
like the personafication of hope.
This is why I believe in the Adam and Eve theory, because God create 2 genders for a reason, and I
truly believe that behind every incident lies a bigger picture. Incidents are like drops of paint, Just having one of them on your canvas isnt enough to form a beautiful piece of abstract art. And that piece would probably look really messy and complex but if you were to place yourself further away from the canvas it shows an awesome picture. Life's like the canvas, sometimes, taking it head on blinds you
from the reality of it all. And sometimes, what we really need to do is to look at our lives from a distance.
Okay, I digressed, LOL. Anyways, yeah the reason why I don't believe in Darwinism is because everything happened so randomly. Like we were presumably the evolution of apes cause we look like them, and that's an insult! So if a person has fish lips, he is the evolution of fishes? :O
That's so mean! So, never tell Darwinists that they look like shit. It's like when one of them takes a shit, sees it and goes, "HEY LOOK MY ARM!"
So parents, dont deprive your kids from dating, because underexposure to the opposite sex makes your kids gay.And ps, I really really love girls. >)
Sorry for the shitty post, I have no idea what to blog about. Its like I had ideas in my head but they turned out to be really short so yeah.. I just wished something interesting would happen.. not to me of course.
CIAO<3
In Your Embrace
Sunday, January 3, 2010
9:50 PM
Hay guys!
Well for most of us, tmr marks the start of prison life, aka SCHOOL.
Everyone's gonna picture evil cackling witch-like teachers torturing the crap
out of us with pile after pile of work. THINK AGAIN, because for me, as well
as the rest of the poly students, homework is now byte-sized, therefore there
is room for a WHOLE lot more. So like, widen the evil smiles of our lecturers,
that's how bad it is.
Okay, maybe I'm exaggerating. I'm probably just speaking for all the idiots like me
who picked the wrong course and are struggling to drift to school like aimless souls,
aimless, MESSED UP souls that is. And yes, I'm getting this annoying feeling when
you feel that none of your sentences are flowing right. I think that happens when you
blog/write for the sake of it and not because you're inspired to. It sucks cause it really
robs your mood to blog, and you'll digress after like 10 lines or something.
Church was okay, cathecism class wasnt as boring as anticipated, and I'll need to start writing
my testimonial soon. Oh yeah sorry if you don't get what I'm talking about, it's a PREBBY THANG!
Like, Presbyterian.. I'm kidding, I respect all religions, I think. I know some religions are really queer, but they are the embodiments of culture, and culture is, in my opinion, beautiful.
Anyways, this is just a very short update about my life, and I hope to get some pictures up soon, to show you what've I been doing during the holidays. And.. quick note, I can't wait to finally be off my dressing, so that I can start losing weight. Holidays are never kind to your diet ):
Aight, take care
CIAO<3
Cheer Up Post
12:10 AM
Hay twin, you're probably wondering why I'm saying 'twin', instead of
'guys'. That's because this post is for my best friend in the world.
If you ever read this, don't beat yourself up or feel bad over it. Everyone
has those days and what you did wasn't even as bad as what most people our age would do. But I don't want to harp on that issue, because there're probably a bajillion other problems that await you. Instead, I wanna take you someplace. It's almost magical, but it isn't my bedroom.
Kidding.
Yeah, right now, I want you to close your eyes and imagine some things. I honestly don't know how wide your imagination is, so just try your best.
Imagine reddish orange clouds rolling, like everything was sped up. You can see occasional flashes of lightning, and you're standing on lush green grass, with nothing but grass all around you. So imagine all of that. I personally like this scenario, because even though you're in the middle on a storm, you'll feel at ease, because there's nothing to knock you off place. And that's why whenever you feel down, you should never think of people, because they remind you of the real world. Instead, think nature, because it helps soothe your troubled soul.
And one more thing, I know I might not be the best of storytellers, and sometimes I'm weird, sometimes I'm corny. But I know that I'll always be here for you, and I'll never judge you for anything. 3 words: you're my twin. Okay maybe 3.5.
<3
Grudges
Friday, January 1, 2010
11:40 PM
Hay guys!
Today's post won't be really long, but I really wanna blog about something
many people can relate to.
And I'm not gonna lie, I do hold grudges. Fortunately, they're slippery so I lose my grip on them
after awhile. Grudges remind me of the Grinch that stole Christmas, and if you think about it, they're very similar. The Grinch is basically a manifestation of its countless grudges, and hence it steals Christmas, aka Happiness.
The worst part about grudges is that, there's no real way to shake them off. I mean, even if
you forgive, you'll probably remember that incident. An interesting point to note is that,
as much as parents don't want their kids to know, they hold grudges to. You may have heard
your mother say, "Gosh son, how many times do I have to tell you before you change?!?!"
That, to me, is a grudge to some extent. I wished my parents would stop bringing up the past and live for the moment instead. Is it that hard to cut away that sentence, because it serves
no purpose other than to remind their kids that they're incorrigible. That's pretty harsh.
Okay, I wanna digress. Today, my cell group and I were playing this cool game, "Ungame".
It consists of cards with questions on them, and you have to pick one and share your opinions with the rest of the players. I thought it was by far a better icebreaking game than the stupid Whacko shit, oh and the game with Hunters, trees and squirrels sucked too, because there's
no real depth into the game, other than to pick on people so they can do embarrassing forfeits.
That kinda perpetuates social prejudice, totally not cool.
With that said and done, I'm gonna catch some Zs, because I have a baptism interview tmr at 12. AND I KNOW, YOUR reaction, yes YOU THERE, like, "OMG BEN YOU'RE GETTING BAPTISED???????!!!!!" YES I AM
HAHA sooo..
CIAO<3
Count to 10, and we're back again.
12:57 AM
HAY GUYS!
So another decade has passed, and a new one begins right now.
This time, it's different, because when 2000 unfolded, we were
all still in primary school and didn't know better. But as I sit
here, with my own thinking, I knew it was time to seriously ponder
about the effectiveness of New Year's Resolutions. Yes I know I've
blogged about it before but that was just me telling you what my resolutions
are instead of talking about it.
Anyways, New Year's Resolutions may seem corny and overly cliched, but
at least it gives your new year a backbone, little projects you can work on.
Wouldn't it suck if you're like, "Oh LOOK a new year, sooo.. why am I
still alive?" That's the problem with many people because they don't
know what else to make of their lives other trying to survive, and that,
is a miserable way to live.
Therefore, I'm gonna tell you guys about the things I'm looking forward to.
1.The new Alex Rider book. Did I tell you, I really like reading :D
2.New friends. Probably the top of my list. I love people, what more can I say?
3.Blessings and Baptism. I am a Christian, and I've personally witnessed the countless things that Jesus has done for me. Hence, I'm gonna be baptised this Easter. And, I'll finally be able to get a middle name. YAY!
4.iPhone. Okay I know this might sound materialistic, but I'm still craving for it. :P
5.YOUTUBE. Im looking forward to watching all the cool new videos, as well as to make one or two myself.
6.Change of course!. Most anticipated event ever! Wish me luck.
See, all the little things in life that I look forward to, and I'm sure you guys do have things to look forward to as well.HAPPY NEW YEARCIAO<3
